This decade is full of teh Suck. Like a giant Swirling Vortex of it. Maybe it’s my mood? No, pretty sure everything sucks right now.

Thanksgiving was a let down on so many levels, but honestly it doesn’t matter anymore. I had originally planned to go out of town and treat myself. I put my plans on hold for mother. I informed her that wouldn’t happen next year. They can do that shitshow circus without me, thanks. I’m already dreading Christmas.

And the following Wednesday back from Thanksgiving break, I was laid off. This past week. (How is it December already?) Last Friday, December 2nd, was my last official day with Imagine Learning. They laid off just over 300 people that day. This was the second layoff this year that I’m aware of.

Talk about shitty timing. I mean, who lays folks off just before Christmas? Apparently a lot of companies nowadays. Yet another glaring example that employers do NOT care about their employees, despite what my annoyingly optimistic side wants so desperately to believe. I believed IL cared about its people. I believed I finally had value somewhere.

Logically I know my worth, but like most other humans, I crave validation. And snacks. I mean, IL fed me. Paid me an actual living wage. Had OKish benefits. Health coverage wasn’t the best I’ve ever seen, but much better than the shite BCBS/AL crap I had with IBML and nearly every other place I’ve ever worked in the state of Alabama. (UAB’s Viva was the best, I miss it so much!) I loved my boss, and my team. But sadly IL’s severance package left much to be desired, as did the termination process. No matter how I felt during my working days there, the termination process and events to follow showed me how little I was worth to them afterall. No amount of snacks, tshirts, or free crap can ever remedy that.

Words and tchotchkes are cheap. Actions reveal more than anything else ever will.

So yeah, I’m on the job hunt again. I swear, this feels JUST like online dating. In fact, I’m pretty certain the processes for job hunting and dating are the exact same. And both JUST AS FRUSTRATING!

I cringe with every job ad that requires analog job application processes. I’m shaming the particularly bad ones via social media (hiding the names ofc). At least there’s a few remote things here and there so maybe I can find something quick.

But for now, yeah, I’m still in shock. I’m hurting, raw. I’m getting angry. I just want to work, and help people. This should not be this hard.