When you finally get a Diagnosis does it make more sense to feel Relief or anger? Or do both emotions make sense? For me both are completely logical. It's like getting a two ton weight lifted off your chest. But then you just feel angry, like why did I get this illness? Why did it pick me or what did I do so wrong that I ended up with this?

Relief, it's when you finally get the name to the confusing mish mash of symptoms you've been experiencing. Sometimes you give it your own name, but when you finally get the real name of your symptoms it's like a miracle. All of the things that you've suffered through have brought you to this point. It's almost like floating through the air on cloud nine. When you have a diagnosis you feel like doctors can't treat you like you're crazy anymore.

Anger, you feel like maybe you did something deserve this horrible illness. That's usually the first thought that comes to my mind anyway. And that maybe if you ate better or did something different everything would be okay. But that's only correct in some cases but most of the time no that isn't the answer to everything. And anger is white, hot and blinding. It makes no sense but when does anger make sense. It takes us over and changes us.

Anger and relief are justifiable almost all the time but you just have to keep moving on, and learn to adapt as much as possible. It'll hurt but adaptation is the best thing we can do. Change happens throughout the course of illness but you have to try the best of it.