8:44pm

Times like this I just wish it was just a dream. That whatever thing I've dreamt of stays in the dream and never come true. He's back after spending 6 months abroad, which is no big deal or perhaps, good I guess? However the dilemma has just begun, the voice of a 21 year old female no longer become valid and everyone's attention/behavior had a major change.

It all happened in the blink of an eye, I was asleep, woke up and he's home.

Not just that, everyone in the house has become like a manifestation of a new them, they're all FAKE. Grandma acting all nice like she hadn't been quarreling with me since birth, and mom pretending to issue small talks just so I wouldn't feel left out by his presence. And him, the owner of the house, ah forget it we never talk at all anyways.

My weak side is showing. That fragility and once toughened facial is dying. I am no longer strong and sucks to say but I think I'm vulnerable for the first time.