It’s been Awhile since I can’t breathe. Life Continues but I don’t see you. You have taken so long. I have survived only marginally. ‘Not so soon!’ I keep escaping the death. ‘I want to see the one.’ Then self goes on navigating through the vast lake of unseen teary-eyes, wanting to sail towards the desired destination. Then it continues questing through the curtains of all the existence, hoping to reach the heart at last. Since a millennium, million oceans burst open inside; I want to be drowned in that consciousness which is so unaware of me. I would like to let my last memory be that inadvertent smile. I would want to be in those brief moments, survive forever in those expressions. I crave to merge in that unseen existence. Like waves in the sea, the soul goes on to collide in the grace of the unapparent. Like an iron in the water, the dreams are corroding me. Like sand in beaches, a significant part of me is being scattered away. Like glaciers, I keep melting in this form and shape, so much that it’s been awhile since I can’t breathe. Life continues but I don’t see you.
The eternal quest continues, somehow. The winds passing through the one have become my unending and forever replenishable source of strength. I was merely a wood before but now that scent has made me Oudh. In this fragrance, I keep on searching but haven’t discovered the ultimate root yet without which my identity is faceless, inside is empty, and this existence is faulty. Someone holds the Mushk filled with water when I am here in the desert, about to faint out of thirst. I hope that the shadow would cover me once, guide me in the dark, and become my brightest star. I just hope that a merger of some kind catalyze the travel to the edges of the universe. Then the floating might continue through the vast dimensions of multi-verse. Then we might reach all the way till the end. This, however, is a silly hope that someone lit my wings on fire! Burn me in the flames of love. Ignite my soul, my spirit. For the patience is wearing thin. The atoms of my consciousness are collapsing against each other. It appears that the sky-fall of my world has become an irreversible reality. In this vast ocean of uncertainty, I know for sure that there must be the boat for an eventual rescue. So far, it’s been awhile since I can’t breathe at all. Life continues but I don’t see you.