Many times our lives make it impossible for us to be positive all the time. But being negative does not help at all. Yeah … I’ve noticed that. Often life knocks us down and once we’re on the ground she does not hesitate to call her cronies and kick us until about ten or twelve teeth break as well as some ribs and bruises on the eye. What to do about it? Staying on the floor crying and picking teeth? Or, try to get up and fight back? Yes, that’s what she wants. That’s what bullies want. All of them. They want you to retaliate so they can beat you up more. So,what’s your choice?
Long ago I have chosen to stay on the ground in a fetal position asking for mercy in life. Crying for all the possible places but, somehow, with a smile on my face, the result of some hope that still lives within. Not just a hope … but some Forgiveness too. I must forgive myself for the things I’ve done to me all this time. I’ve done horrible things with my body and with my soul and I’ll be honest: I can not forgive myself. But forgiving is necessary. No matter what. No matter who. You just have to forgive and erase the extra blemishes inside. From now on I will ask forgiveness from me whenever I can. Forgiveness heals. “Room by room … patiently.” It’s okay if you do not want to forgive too. Forgiveness will only bring you peace of mind. Not a Nobel of Peace.
Make mistakes as much as you want. This is how you learn to live. But forgive yourself. Forgive those who have hurt you. They will regret one day and their pain will be greater than yours.
Live positively. No matter what. Just live. You are fortunate to be a perfect human being who always has a chance to return to the arms of the one who rules the laws of the universe. Many people would give anything to be in your shoes or to have what you have.
My life may not be perfect .. I may not have the most beautiful body, the most beautiful hair, not have the perfect partner (Okay, I have it, I’m married to Keanu .. Shhhh!) Or the most beautiful house on the street .. but This is what I have. That’s what life gave me for deserving. I know there’s more ahead. But if I do not take care and let myself fall into the darkness completely … I’ll be fucked! Good Night. Sweet nightmares