If Trixi isn't a Bully and is that kind friend like she says then why she couldn't simply tell me she can't handle freaking out anymore? For a soldier or former soldier it shouldn't be hard to tell the truth directly, which is all I ever asked from her and expected from her, but she's not a former soldier, only a liar. Instead she gave me lies and hints, she's only able to say what she really thinks through Grummel83 or someone else, which is cowardice.  Last time we talked she gave me false hope that someday we will talk again, called my poem bullshit without any reason, called me sick, although I did nothing wrong, came up with lies that I spied and stalked her. Looks like she's a lying coward and bully. True kind friend would've directly told me: "Sorry, I can't deal with your freaking out anymore, it's too much for me", or the same without sorry word. trixi didn't do that. All she told me was lies and hints, and made me feel bad just because I can't pretend everything's fine. That act with Core Membership was done because trixi wanted to promote herself through me and to make sure that she can tell people: "look I was kind to her, because I bought core membership for her", in case if something goes wrong.