Just like the title says - today is Sunday August 14th, 2016. I am currently sitting at my desk at work procrastinating. I should be working on files and making spreadsheets yet, I am aimlessly staring at the computer screen as my fingers type out the word vomit in my mind.
I just spent 5 minutes looking at this screen thinking about why I decided to make this blog. Why would I want to put my emotions and feelings out for everyone to see? Now I truly don't envision many or honestly anyone looking at this, so I guess it is going to be for me. A way I can get things off my chest and just be true to myself. I could also use this as a way to document my upcoming weight-loss. I say upcoming because I am now determined and ready to see a change. I have never told anyone my weight as I am too embarrassed - but hell why am I embarrassed?? It is just a number - it doesn't define me as a person. It doesn't make me a bad person or an outcast like society makes it seem like. I am just as normal as you or anyone else on this earth. So here it is I Meggan, am 5 foot 5 inches tall and 196 pounds. I feel like I am going to vomit. But I finally got it out - now there is no turning back - only moving forward from here. I'll have to post a before picture even though I might die - but I know that it is a great way for me to see my progress. I'll be posting periodically with updates and pictures - but that is not this blogs main purpose - its for me to be free.
I don't believe that I am a good writer - the words get all jumbled and I just can not figure out a way to get them from my head, to my fingers, to the keys and on this computer. My dyslexia sets in and I just get frustrated and give up. If I stay determined like I am with my weight-loss then I know this will be successful. Well even if I fail I know that I gave it my best shot!!
I need to go out, get a drink and just relax. Maybe have some good conversation with someone and just forget my real life for a while. As for now I do need to do some work before my boss notices.
stay humble, stay peaceful, and always stay hopeful