Slightly dated letter I wrote to Ameya while waiting for her to arrive in this world.
Sep 09, 2014
My dear child,
I sit here in the hospital, swamped by anxiety and Excitement in equal measures, awaiting your safe arrival into a world of unknowns. There is a tempest that is brewing in my mind and yet everything seems blank. I don’t think I have experienced anything like this before and who would have thought that all this could culminate in an inexplicable speechlessness.
You my dear have undertaken a long and arduous journey and are now on the brink of beginning a lifelong one. You have fought valiantly and won several battles to bring life into fruition. As you now enter this new world, remember to keep this resilience and perseverance and though there will be battles you’ll lose, may there be none where you lose hope. So far in this journey of yours, there has been an undefinable force by your side. Call it God, nature or conscience, this force will continue with you all your life. Remember to hear, heed and act in harmony with this force of life.
While you took this journey by yourself, there was a fair distance that you have made me Travel as well. What began as disbelief, was converted to excitement when I first saw you as a tiny spec on a screen. You later appeared as a semblance of a hand, a leg and a nose. Then you manifested in friendly kicks and punches. While you took your mother as a trusted co-traveller on this journey, I was left to experience all of this vicariously. But there is a travel I undertook, possibly even without your knowledge or design. Unwittingly, you have made me realise grateful I need to be to my parents. You have shown me the mirror on how I was giving up on the ones who never gave up on me. And while it is hard to document this cathartic travel of mine, it is probably life’s grand design that I should come to this milestone at the cusp of my parenthood. You, my love, in one subtle stroke, have made me a father and a son.
I know my wait for you shall end very soon and then, we will begin a companionship for life.
And I know you will do well, grandly well. You always have…