Till before December 2017, I was a novice as far as seeing Death was concerned. Some might say I was over protected, some might say that is strange but it is as it is. I am the youngest in my family and was somehow protected or not brought face to face with death. I only viewed it from a distance and never really understood the depth of it.
But with the demise of my Father things changed. I realized what it really meant and having seen it from the closest possible quarter i.e. literally being there when he was taking his last breath I was shaken to the core. I did cry but there are feelings, words, anxiety and so many things that I can not put in words but are buried inside the core of my heart.
Before this, I used to be very hesitant about offering my condolences to people who would have lost their close ones. The thoughts that used to run in my mind were, What will I say?, what if I said something wrong? etc. But now things have changed within me; I do not hesitate in going up and meeting the person. A friend of mine suddenly lost her very young brother. And i just walked over to her and gave her a hug. I knew what she must be going through, I could understand her loss and I could feel that she must be having sleepless nights. I told her that I know what you are going through and shared my experience with her. In a way that opened her up and she could share her thoughts with me.
I have now realized that talking out helps and I have been offering my help and been sharing my experience with people who are going through similar difficult times. Unfortunately I have learned it the hard way i.e. by experiencing it. An experience which I would not wish even on my worst enemy.
