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This is a post I hastily scribbled down, primarily for my own benefit, several days ago. Having just stumbled across it again I thought it was maybe worth sharing … Read More
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the meanderings and word-play of a left-of-centre armchair activist - living and frequently struggling with moderate M.E. - where (bad) health, faith, politics and the joys and troubles of daily life collide.
2024-01-03 15:19
This year I spent considerable time on Advent readings and meditations, for some reason I've always found time for Lent studies but have somewhat overlooked approprate studies for the Advent… Read More
2022-05-25 13:51
The abominable abdominals, that have taunted and haunted my bodily frame since Saturday evening, have settled down to their more familiar state of dis-ease. Concurrently, a combi… Read More
2021-11-03 10:59
As both a Christian and a Socialist, I always have problems with the celebration of militarism otherwise known as Poppy Day. Whether or not I would have had sufficient strength of char… Read More
2020-01-28 13:32
Where to begin, where do these words go as I fling them out into the great unknown. Where am I coming from; my anxiety has now veered close to the territory of a fully fledged reactive depre… Read More
2020-01-05 20:34
Confusion mounts but, is it the result of tiredness or of excruciating pain, does it stem from extreme exhaustion or intense nauseating discomfort. The evidence is difficult to decipher, in… Read More
2020-01-04 20:32
I’ve never really been one for planning; taking things as they come, with opportunities galore for spontaneity and improvisation, is more my favoured route. Sadly, things in the real w… Read More
2019-09-30 19:07
You put your left hand in, you pull your left hand out … that’s what it’s all about. Well that sounds easy enough, a simple exercise but, I’ve recently been made to… Read More
2019-08-19 20:06
Seems like I have a permanent ticket for a roller-coaster ride, not that I particularly requested or enjoy the experience! The journey involves states of physical and emotional health, by wh… Read More
2019-08-04 19:20
How easily relative calm is broken. One would suppose a simple transfer transaction online, an action that I’ve regularly performed, would cause few if any emotional problems. That pre… Read More
2019-06-10 19:04
Strange as it may seem to some, my best, most refreshing, sleep frequently occurs after the returning daylight hours have become established. No matter how restless, torturous, or even relax… Read More
2019-05-22 19:05
Painfully restless nights have been showering me in abundance of late; how I yearn for those times when bed-rest actually proved restful and, one had the joy of waking refreshed to the new m… Read More
2019-04-02 14:44
Today, just sitting, no laptop, no tablet, no newssheet in my hands, none of the usual suspects for me to blame; just sat, watching a movie on TV when, suddenly, tiredness, acute throbb… Read More
2019-02-19 11:30
I have just posted a NEW POEM - Mounds Mystery - on my Mal's Factory blog. When I say new there is a possibility that it may yet prove to be quite simply a working draft Read More
2019-02-02 13:55
And suddenly the old familiars return; I can’t say that they’re particularly welcome but, they do offer a distraction from more recent discomforting visitors. Just as I’d s… Read More
2018-12-29 23:01
For the past few weeks my health, and emotions, have been on something of a roller-coaster ride; it’s difficult enough living with chronic-illness / chronic pain but, when more mundane… Read More
2018-10-21 20:50
This happens far too regularly and yet, it still catches me unawares, a total surprise. This afternoon, just relaxing with my faithful pooch laying beside me on the sofa,, when a sudden grip… Read More
2018-09-25 19:02
And today the giddiness /vertigo returned (see post ‘The Eye of the Storm’ http://sinnaluvva.blogspot.com/2018/08/the-eye-of-storm-of-health-non-well.html), the top half of my he… Read More
2018-09-02 21:46
I have just posted A Piscine Ploy - Illustrated poem on Mal's Factory -painting & illustration both by yours truly!http://malsfactory.blogspot.com/2018/09/a-piscine-ploy-illustrated-poem… Read More
2018-09-02 20:35
2018-08-19 19:31
By last evening, the efficacious application of sundry supports, and a small opioid dose, had brought me back into a more at ease body to contain my soul and mind. So far all was going well… Read More
2018-08-19 15:25
2018-08-18 21:12
Some days, when everything’s apparently going smoothly, a familiar recurring symptom comes almost as a surprise. Quite what causes the symptom is a bit of a puzzle but, that doesn&rsqu&hell…Read More
2018-08-14 19:46
The general state of my joints, muscles and general viscera this morning (Tuesday) could best be described as disconcertingly enervated. At least last night granted me a little more sleep, a… Read More
2018-08-07 11:42
and suddenly they flow“pains come and goand tears flowa creeping fermentationof an odious decay … “ - Malcolm Evison 060818Today has not been the best of days, nor yet the… Read More
2018-07-23 22:16
A BODY FEELS (THE HEAT)Each footstep joltsthe ankle, knee and hipprovokes a frank responseto the humid heatToday the wearinessextends its reachbeyond the oldfamiliar aches and painsAlmost as… Read More
2018-07-01 11:39
Wearied by humid heat, each minor task seems Herculean, even more so when it involves a trip into town. For many years now I’ve been unable to face travelling any distance but, it has… Read More
2018-06-21 14:34
Come early evening and tiredness verging on exhaustion takes passing hold of me but, as a notoriously bad sleeper, I hoped not to drift off at such an early hour. Of course resting / relaxat… Read More
2018-06-20 21:18
So, five days after my birthday I was going to get around to spending /exchanging a couple of gift vouchers. My visits in to town are exceedingly rare, albeit just a few minutes drive (court… Read More
2018-05-31 14:16
I've just been reminded, once again, by a friend's misunderstanding whilst communicating via Messenger, of how much one loses when living with a chronic illness - in my case moderate ME (mya… Read More
2018-05-31 13:30
Just gotta be honest; as I feel at the moment I don’t want to see of hear any reports of any text, video or image going viral. Since the end of last week I’ve been the victim of… Read More
2018-05-18 12:57
Where to start; how to define; what words can be used to describe another normal day. I wish to God I understood what is a normal day? Even my days, curbed by health restraints, proffer plen… Read More
2018-05-10 18:37
Just when you think you’ve recovered from the roller-coaster ride, a sudden smack of reality makes you realize that you’ve stepped onto the ferris wheel and this time it’s… Read More
2018-03-20 11:34
I'm just getting a little fed-up with the misery and deaths caused by the Tories austerity ideology. My health no longer permits me to participate, feet on the ground ... man the barricades… Read More
2018-03-15 19:23
A night, plagued by both restless legs and a kind of strangulated tenderness emanating from the axillary lymph nodes, found me more exhausted on arising from the duvet realm, shortly after 1… Read More
2018-02-13 20:29
Life races by, with a generous sprinkling of love, received, given and shared as the most vital portion of each day. I am blessed with a catholicity of musical taste, ranging from early musi… Read More
2018-01-29 22:38
Regular readers of my blog may well recall my angrily frustrated posts regarding several futile attempts at connecting an Epson photo-printer to my network (three postings between 19th &… Read More
2018-01-27 19:38
It is with gratitude that I report the arrival of the engineer, well within the timeframe proffered yesterday. Apart from a phone call this morning confirming the arrangement, and an o… Read More
2018-01-26 20:24
Once again we’re having problems with our Internet connection, as supplied by Branson’s Harlot Media. For a few weeks we were having random brief losses of internet access even t… Read More
2018-01-08 21:00
Adorned in loose fitting garments, shirt and unzipped fleece; of a sudden it felt like my armpit lymph nodes were being strangled by a tourniquet. Strangely, although all garments felt… Read More
2017-12-24 20:55
2017-12-20 11:44
additional DMs from Epson & my response: 11.16hrs 20/12/17Hi Malcom, In order to assist you can you please confirm where in the setup process the connection fails? do you have a WPS butt… Read More
2017-12-19 16:36
Because of HPs collusion in Israel’s Human Rights Abuses (see http://www.ipsc.ie/event/derry-iaw-2017-stop-hp-collusion-in-israels-human-rights-abuses-saturday-information-stall-ipsc}I… Read More
2017-12-19 14:14
Having made a grievous error of purchasing a new photo printer (older ones now best for document printing alone) I found myself damaging my health (and deeply upsetting my beloved) in trying… Read More
2017-11-03 14:52
I’ve always heard about the road to hell being paved with good intentions and, have more recently discovered that another’s good intention can bring severe dis-ease to the one be… Read More
2017-11-02 15:29
Currently, my temper is running on a very short fuse, swift to anger but sluggish in calming down. At its worst I end up upsetting those whom I love and even, at times, keeping temper simmer… Read More
2017-10-24 20:34
ON THE OPENING & CLOSING OF DOORSWell, life has certainly been eventful, and frustrating, since my fall (http://sinnaluvva.blogspot.co.uk/2017/09/a-fall-becomes-set-back-and-shaggy-dog.h… Read More
2017-09-21 19:39
Saturday and Sunday I still felt somewhat shocked and shaken, by the fall I had on Friday evening, as full sensation and feeling hadn’t yet returned to my right foot and ankle. As I st… Read More
2017-09-16 20:15
Yesterday’s events brought back a memory from 1962 when I was a student nurse in Exeter. I especially recalled a young man on the orthopaedic ward who had a talent for inappropriately… Read More
2017-09-14 19:21
I've just posted a freshly minted new poem (at least current draft - Draft V) "PROPRIETARY RITES" on MALs FACTORY Read More
2017-09-09 19:13
Although most days, of late, have tended to feature a time of sustained pain and discomfort, its manner of onset varies considerably. Sometimes an ache in the palm of the hand and fingers, o… Read More
2017-08-13 12:11
Another shattered day, or should that be another day of shattered tiredness; perhaps a tired shattered-ness will suffice. Drained, wrung-out, exhausted; none of these quite hit the mark, alt… Read More
2017-07-20 14:16
For These Small Mercies (we proffer thanks)Today, so far at least, is one of gentle shattered-ness;welcome relief from yesterday’s gripingpain and aches. An ever present undertow,of ge… Read More
2017-07-04 18:41
Why don’t they come and release the clamps … why don’t they come and RELEASE THE CLAMPS? Stupid thing is there aren’t any clamps and, even if there were, there&rsquo&hell…Read More
2017-06-09 16:18
Well, I’ve got to admit that my recovery after the arthroscopy was much quicker than I’d anticipated and, within three weeks I was back to being able to walk the dog on pavement… Read More
2017-06-07 18:12
As a life-long socialist*, I first joined the Labour Party in 1960 and, involvement in various campaigning groups on the internationalist/ social justice/ socialist spectrum swiftly followed… Read More
2017-05-15 19:41
Come Friday night, after all the preceding days anxieties, my only concern as I got into bed was whether I’d be able to get ready on time the following morning; more importantly would… Read More
2017-05-11 15:06
It’s almost as if the legions of gremlins are on the warpath again, some kind of vendetta against me. Sometimes I’ve found that expressing my hopes, aches, pains and fears in a q… Read More
2017-05-11 13:51
Well that was one helluva night! No, I don’t mean it was brilliant or enjoyable, indeed the opposite would seem to apply. For a large section of the night, which should have been spent… Read More
2017-05-03 17:48
It’s just been another of those days that a sudden flare of aches, pains and discomfort caught me unawares; why it should be unawares is I suppose a reflection of that hope that today… Read More
2017-04-30 16:21
I’m currently re-discovering how an element of anxiety exacerbates, to a considerable extent, the symptoms of a chronic illness. On this occasion the anxiety is caused by the inept and… Read More
2017-04-15 12:32
For the past couple of days I’ve been attempting to reactivate iolo System Mechanic 16.5 premium. I first installed it on two old machines in February then, more recently, on a newer m… Read More
2017-04-11 18:38
and ache becomes pain – literal & metaphoricalI wrote, quite recently, about the difficulty of defining / distinguishing an ache from a pain. This morning, sundry expressions of th… Read More
2017-04-01 18:43
It’s one of those times when language seems to be somewhat limited, lacking in pertinent words to describe a particular mode of being. What I have been experiencing, earlier today, is… Read More
2017-03-30 14:13
This post originally appeared on another blog of mine in 2005, based on some earlier scribblings of mine in an (unfriendly/hostile) online Christian ForumA Susceptibility to Faith? After und… Read More
2017-03-24 14:43
originally published on my 'Mal's Murmurings' blog in September 2005Jesus transformed my life but, perhaps, in turn I changed his. Hisstory has been transmitted to us via faith communities a… Read More
2017-03-23 13:09
This posting was first published on my 'Mal's Murmurings' blog in January 2007Faith MattersFAITH is that set of values, and ultimate questions, by which we lead our lives. Questions and doub… Read More
2017-03-03 19:37
SAT TO PLEASE Piper gently whines missing his mistress, and (the now back home) recuperating… Read More
2017-02-23 19:44
The day started with a generalized non-specific ache, nothing major this time, aching rather than painfully discomforted. Part and parcel of these aches is a sensation as if an arterial infu… Read More
2017-02-15 19:16
I have posted a new poem (or maybe perhaps a poem in progress) on 'Mals Factory' entitled "in the moment" Read More
2017-02-08 21:58
To sleep, perchance to dream; no that’s not it, I dream that I may once again experience a sense of refreshment from my sleep. I have, quite simply, lost track of how many months, or e… Read More
2017-02-04 21:08
Last night, once again, was of the somewhat discomforted variety, regardless of a pre-emptive dose of amitriptyline and tramadol. It was rather difficult to clamp down on the moans & cus… Read More
2017-01-22 22:28
There are moments when time weighs so heavily that the prospect of longevity seems like a cruel joke; at other times life seems far too fleeting. The heavy weight is especially apparent when… Read More
2017-01-04 21:36
For the first time in many years I’ve succumbed to a full blown cold, hardly surprising, one might say, as my elder step-daughter Beth who stayed with us at Christmas, and my you… Read More
2017-01-02 22:48
Today has been one of those where sundry, apparently minor, ailments decided to stamp their cumulative presence at the forefront of my consciousness. Earlier in the day, after an all too fam… Read More
2016-11-15 13:05
A general mode of tetchiness rapidly transmogrified into an explosive compound of anger, frustration and despair. All of a sudden, slow oozing droplets of distress became a raging torrent of… Read More
2016-11-13 20:58
As both a Christian and a Socialist, I always have problems with the celebration of militarism otherwise known as Poppy Day. Whether or not I would have had sufficient strength of character… Read More
2016-11-10 15:09
No matter how long, or short, the time spent out of sight of our beloved dog, the welcome back we receive is heart meltingly, heart warningly, touching and enthusiastic. Wherever he&rs&hell…Read More
2016-10-11 20:42
A few illustrated poems, by yours truly, have recently been posted on MAL's FACTORY Read More
2016-09-22 15:35
Although I’m, by now, well used to unrefreshing sleep, the past couple of weeks have found me experiencing the most erratically intermittent bouts of night time rest, haphazardly inter… Read More
2016-09-05 19:56
Although I have never considered ME as primarily a ‘fatigue’ condition, pain, cognitive difficulties, postural hypotension, sensitivities to sound and light, and post-exertional… Read More
2016-08-29 19:54
Time races by; as one gets older the weeks pass like days, months pass as quickly as weeks and, years breast the finishing tape just as one’s getting used to the present year’s n… Read More
2016-07-29 20:43
Having been totally absorbed by a performance of Mahler's Symphony No 3, conducted by Bernard Haitink, from the BBC Proms courtesy of BBC4, I thought it time to repost a poem of mine on my p… Read More
2016-07-23 20:21
The heat and humidity of the past week have certainly, but unsurprisingly, had a detrimental effect on my relative state of well-being. Even before the hottest day arrived, I was already suf… Read More
2016-07-15 13:03
HOUDINI HOUND brings on payback but provides much therapeutic HEALING – the PIPER chroniclesWednesday night was a time of moderate payback for the additional (voluntary) exertion / exe… Read More
2016-07-06 21:43
It really is amazing how quickly the world, at least in one’s personal sphere, can be turned upside down and inside out. Less than two weeks ago Piper came to visit us and, different f… Read More
2016-07-03 19:12
A time of change; as all things turn, there is always a return made, an apparent centring to what has been a slow created essence of one’s being! Quite why I scribbled down that openin… Read More
2016-06-26 17:26
Having been with Virgin Media since they took over NTL, I'm always being told what wonderful value we get from their packages! My response is that they talk considerable b*ll*cks! I've… Read More
2016-06-02 20:31
A SHATTEREDNESS CONUNDRUMIt's not so much the chicken and the egg as the pain or the tiredness. Does weariness simply allow a latent pain to exaggerate it's presence or, is it the tired bodi… Read More
2016-06-01 21:23
I always feel at peace with the world when I step out into our garden -sometimes I even forget the copious nagging ailments that play such a (largely negative) part in my daily experien… Read More
2016-05-20 13:03
Sitting in the summerhouse, listening to a trill (I could say a thrill) of tweets, croaks, piped and fulsome whistling song of the birds; all seems right with the world. This, after a most r… Read More
2016-05-19 17:51
Convulsive weeping, the pattern of my day; a sense of failure, weakness or betrayal, none of it makes sense! After weeks of feeling further under par, a decision to increase my dose of amit… Read More
2016-05-06 20:21
2016-04-24 13:21
Although each hour, of each day, may seem to drag at present, it still amazes me how swiftly each year seems to pass. Most of the time each day has seemed to pass far to quickly, no sooner i… Read More
2016-03-30 16:30
Life goes on, recurrence of the old familiar aches, pains and dysfunctions (primarily ME related) nag me into acknowledgment of my presence in the material world. Don't get me wrong, whateve… Read More
2016-03-19 18:53
I've just put a new posting, shake me and I'll rattle - but I don't know when, on my Mal's Murmuring blog. It's on the topics of aches, pains and medications Read More
2016-03-19 18:53
"Which way do I turn?" and "dare I turn?"; these related questions come to the fore at erratically scattered instants of day or night. In the past few days, tortuous pains have danced from… Read More
2016-03-19 18:53
2016-03-19 18:53
So much of our lives are spent simply letting regular life experiences wash over us. Passive recipients of what ever opportunities life offers us we, of necessity, avoid reacting to most per… Read More
2016-03-02 20:06
A SLOW SLIDES JOURNEY INTO DAYMAREToday would be best forgotten but, it’s my failure that I find it hard to forget, just as I find it almost insurmountably difficult to forgive. Much o… Read More
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