yesterday was lit but there are some things that I didn’t really talk about Yesterday that are affecting me today

so during the part of my Trip yesterday when I was coming down, it was probably around 2:45ish and I was at my roommate’s boyfriend’s apartment on the balcony

and I was looking at this really tall building that I saw in the distance

and I had a vision of myself just falling off the top of it

and it really spooked me

and so today I’ve been feeling just very down, which didn’t surprise me per se but definitely upset me

I’ve been more suicidal today than usual and the image of me just jumping off the top of that building has been really freaking me out

and I’ve been more tired than usual, I slept through my psych class this morning and now I’m home because I need another nap, so I’m skipping my writing class too in order to go to some sorority events I have tonight

which is okay because I haven’t missed any of my classes yet this semester but still I don’t really like how my mood isn’t stable

I’m hoping this rest will help

I also learned that because I’m on lexapro, it can limit the effects of Acid but also make the day after worse than if I wasn’t on it because it affects my serotonin levels

which is fine like I’m okay I just need to sleep

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