It's 1:00 pm, I wake up to an empty house, it feels good. I really needed the day to myself, to contemplate and whine. I remember I had immediately covered my face with the blanket when Mother came to tell me that the entire family was leaving for my grandparents' house. I did not say goodbye to them. I couldn't show them my face, my Swollen Eyes. I wasn't ready to answer the questions, 'why do you look so tired and what happened to your eyes?.' I am sure Mother would have said, 'it's because you were using your phone the entire night!' I have never understood what does a cell phone have to do with swollen eyes but you can never debate with logic put forward by your Mother. Especially, when you can't tell her the truth! I sit up on my beige colored bed, My head feels heavy and I can't help but recall everything that happened last night. It was around 11:00 pm, when he messaged that we will have to cancel our date plan for the weekend. I don't know what happened but I started crying, I knew he was going to end it, end us. A couple of minutes later, he called, I tried to sound normal and then he said what I had anticipated, 'I am breaking up!' It sounded like a decision, I mean weren't we supposed to be together in this? Wasn't I was supposed to have a say? When he proposed, he asked, 'will you be my girlfriend?' That was a question but last night, it was a decision, his decision about us and I wasn't given the choice to put forward my opinion. I thought of calling a friend but in that moment, I wasn't in a mood to listen, 'you will find someone', 'you deserve someone better' or 'this too shall pass!' I wanted a warm hug, so I lay on my bed, muffle myself with my favorite blanket, it's purple. I like purple. I remember I wore purple on our first date. We went to a gaming arcade, ate Pizza for lunch, followed by a movie and kissed for the first time before saying goodbye! Considering we were in high school the date was awesome. And while reminiscing about our time together, I break down, I don't stop till I realize my phone is buzzing. It was Mom, she had called to check on me. I lied that I had showered, I hadn't even brushed. I told her I had lunch whereas all I had tasted were my tears and that day they were enough to feed my soul! That afternoon, I slept like a baby, not a very happy baby though!
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