The next day, I am working gayly from home on a very riveting analysis where I am about to uncover a website hacking from dubious countries, when the Wizard appears. He twirls a few times around my desk and then finally settles besides me. I hear a “ping” from my inbox and having been distracted already, I decide to take a peep.
“Buenas tardes,” I cheer proud to show off some extra Spanish I picked up from Babble. “Got a reply from the Shepherd.”
The Wizard peers lazily at the screen of my laptop as I read out the Message loud and clear.
That is possible.
I read your email. So now it will be ‘digested’ subconsciously.
Contact me back around Tuesday next week.
“What does it mean? What next?” I ask the Wizard after I have let the message sink in for a few silent moments.
“It means he will meditate and connect with you in his subconscious,” the Wizard looks at me much amused. “He must be a tree hugger. Contact him next Tuesday and re-ask your questions.”
“Haha really?” I laugh out loud. It never fails to amaze me how much he can actually read into any given message. “You mean he wants to be like you, my dear Wizard cat?”
“Yes,” the Wizard confirms. And at that he curls up and falls asleep. Or he pretends to at least.
So I am now left to my own devices, feeling a mixture of scared and excited as the dreams I have been chasing start to manifest.
When new challenges and opportunities show up in my life, I can never quite pinpoint to which degree I am actually scared or excited. I have not been taught to welcome the thrill of a new opportunity. This is where fear sets in and when I opt to back off. My panic attacks indulge my anxiety instead of awakening my courage. Instead I would like to inspire myself to embrace the opportunities that come my way. I want to chose for excitement, curiosity, passion, and even love.
There is nothing wrong with being afraid. However I will no longer let it stop me from doing the things that excite me. Brave people are not fearless. They are simply more comfortable with fear because they face it by carefully weighing up the pros and the cons before they act. So now I want to face the challenges rather than the anxieties. I want to cultivate my ability to move forward instead of backing off. I want to trust myself to be able to handle new opportunities.
Framing things differently can dramatically shift your mental state. I am excited to have the opportunity to do things I have never done before. Just saying this out loud I feel my energy shifting from fear to excitement. I am empowered with energy to move forward, to grow and learn.
* Disclaimer : Any resemblance between the fictional characters in this story and any persons, living or dead, is a miracle by chance more than by choice.