It was not that long ago that i joined Instagram (2 years ago now!!) but over the last few months i have made a life long friend.
Me and Steph (@coffeebean.recovering) for those of you who don't know, met a few months ago after I commented on her post about coffee saying that it looked amazing but i liked me. It then went on to us sending eachother teabags (we're crazy i i know) and then becoming amazing friends and that meant that i have just spent the last 2 amazing days with her.
if your going to recover yes there are highs and lows but there are people like steph who mega inspire you and forever stand by you and i'm just so grateful that even though every bad moment I've experienced its let me to these last few days. just to be told by my mum that she hasn't seen me this happy in a long long time and for her to cry happy tears instead of being terrified that i would take my own life was so worth it.
Me and Steph (@coffeebean.recovering) for those of you who don't know, met a few months ago after I commented on her post about coffee saying that it looked amazing but i liked me. It then went on to us sending eachother teabags (we're crazy i i know) and then becoming amazing friends and that meant that i have just spent the last 2 amazing days with her.
if I never Picked Recovery I won't of been able to be able to go get lost around Camden looking for cookies n scream. I would of been able to put a face mask on my best friend. I won't of been sitting in a coffee shop feeling like the happiest person in the world.If I never picked recovery I would of never of met her. but I did and it's the greatest life decision I've ever made.not only has she smashed anorexia today, she had proved to be that there is a life outside of mental illness. That she is a complete inspiration to me. That it's perfectly okay to love yourself, so yes we're both wearing shorts and no we don't care.I can't even begin to tell you how grateful I am for today and be able to sing along to pitch perfect together and just actually be able to meet in real life.
honestly relapse doesn't get you anywhere. if me and @coffeebean.recovering never picked recovery we would of never have spend the last 2 days have the greatest time of our lives.
recovery is just so so worth it. it's allowed me to go spontaneous on amazing life adventures.
Relapse got me no where. It put me in a dark place and constantly meant that I had to go to numerous appointments about my state of mind. It left me almost talking my life. if you saw me this time last year and told me i would of achieved half of the things i now have i wont have just told you to shut right up.
Relapse got me no where. It put me in a dark place and constantly meant that I had to go to numerous appointments about my state of mind. It left me almost talking my life. if you saw me this time last year and told me i would of achieved half of the things i now have i wont have just told you to shut right up.
but I didn't and I'm alive and right now I'm so grateful that I'm alive and I've met my best friend in the world and we're about to go out adventuring again. it means that next year I will have finished school finally next year and go on with my life and go to uni. it allowed me to become a body image ambassador and go to job interviews.
it let's me rebuild by life and just be me and I love it and honestly like the last 2 days have just proved to be that this g is never going back to relapse.
it let's me rebuild by life and just be me and I love it and honestly like the last 2 days have just proved to be that this g is never going back to relapse.
if your going to recover yes there are highs and lows but there are people like steph who mega inspire you and forever stand by you and i'm just so grateful that even though every bad moment I've experienced its let me to these last few days. just to be told by my mum that she hasn't seen me this happy in a long long time and for her to cry happy tears instead of being terrified that i would take my own life was so worth it.
i think I've reached a stage now where I've realised what i want in my life. i want to be happy, i want to go out with my friends, i want to go and walk around camden in the rain laughing, i want to blog, i want to inspire people. but most importantly i want to live. so from now on the only way im going is up. im not going to let mental illness waste the rest of my life,
this year i will be 18,
this year i will be discharged from mental health services without just deciding to leave and actually go knowing that im in a better place and i no longer need there support.
this year im going to finally finish my book.
this year i hope to find a job ( i find out if i get a job at any moment today!)
next year i will be a years free from hurting myself.
these last few days will be the first of many.
the sky is my limit and even then i'm not going to give up.
I came. I saw. I do.
and now im here and i know there's a long way ahead but i know ill make it.
we've come this far now why give up huh?
this year im going to finally finish my book.
this year i hope to find a job ( i find out if i get a job at any moment today!)
next year i will be a years free from hurting myself.
these last few days will be the first of many.
the sky is my limit and even then i'm not going to give up.
I came. I saw. I do.
and now im here and i know there's a long way ahead but i know ill make it.
we've come this far now why give up huh?
