For some reason I don’t know how to start this blog. To tell you the truth I’m trying to write this with the understanding that not only am I happy in my Marriage. I Love my Husband so I better be very careful how I word this if I want to keep my marriage happy. Side note I think I’m under the influence. No not drugs or alcohol but more or less being a shop-o-holic. Here we go.
My husband and I financially depend on one another. There are time when we work together and work apart. There are times were we help and there are times were we hinder each other. We both try to put forward our best effort. So what was wrong with this situation. I think my husband felt his best effort was not good enough for me. Okay I love to shop a lot a whole lot. And we really never discuss finances until we were already married to each other.
My husband has a lot of responsibility between household expenses, school, and family. There are friends that he also help out every now and then. He is always focus on the things that is most important to him one example would be budgeting.
So what’s my problem I’ll tell you what going on at the airport. I can’t stop wanting to shop. I go shopping any and everywhere including online because I can’t help myself. Even as I’m writing this I’m doing a little online shopping. My weakness is makeup at the moment. In which I love the best but the best is also the most expensive at time. I was shopping as if I was trying to full the places where my mother was in my heart.
I had to look into myself and realize that not only am I unhappy but these thing do not replace her. In reality I can’t afford to shop myself into more debt. So now I’m getting help but it took my husband really roaring to show me I had to be realistic. For one my husband is really a easy going person and when he’s mad the situation is serious. So serious that he blows his top. I have only ever seen my husband mad three times in our relationship. And twice was at me.
I am learning now to not only set a budget but to stay by it as if it was life and death. And when you think about it, it is life and death. The life and death of my marriage if I don’t get it together
My husband doesn’t have endless pockets but he does take care of everyone he love. Knowing he’s willing to support my craziness I just have to wheel in my spending a little. Okay a lot but I’m working on it. Rome wasn’t built in a day and by the time they finish building this new shopping complex 10 minutes from my house with the Coach store I’ll be under control. Maybe he’ll buy me something when he see I’m doing better. Hold on I’ll go check the website…. Maybe not. Oh well until next time.