I know that I said I wouldn’t be back until next week… but you got pranked super-duper hard!
No, I’m just kidding. I decided to write a post because I’ve been having a lot of bottled-up feelings lately and I want to kinda want to just talk about it.
So, I’m not sure if I’ve mentioned this, but I suffer with mental health issues, or in more detail, depression, Anxiety and anger issues. I don’t really like to talk/write about it, but something happened today and I feel like this might help.
So, on Tuesday I was catching the bus to school and I had a Panic attack. That morning I knew that I didn’t want to be around people, and when we were just around the corner from my school, I felt the biggest lump in my throat, I started shaking, sweating and tears were welling up in my eyes. My heart was pounding a hundred miles an hour. And all of this happened within a matter of seconds.
I then ran into the girl’s bathroom and had a second wave of shaking, crying, breathing difficulties and racing heartbeats. After the second wave, I ran home before anyone could see me.
Every morning since then (soooooo, like, 2 days), I’ve been waking up and not being able to get out of bed because I’ve been having anxiety attacks. IN BED. BEFORE I’VE EVEN STARTED THE DAY. THE HELL?
Of course, I’ve had panic attacks before, but not this often. So, I have no idea what’s going on. And don’t worry. I’m going to see a doctor.
Today, on my way to the town library to catch up on some schoolwork and such, I ducked into a nice detour path where it was shady for a rest. To my Surprise, there was a girl there! But she looked sad, she was sobbing. I was going to walk away, but that wouldn’t be nice, so I walked up to her and asked what was wrong. She said she was having an anxiety attack and that I should just leave her alone because it happens to her a lot.
I still sat with her until it passed (it lasted about 3 minutes), and I asked her if she was ok after all of that. She looked very exhausted after her episode, and she thanked me for sitting with her. We went our separate ways, and the rest is history.
I guess I don’t really have an underlying message to this story or any advice to give, but I just want everyone to know that you’re not alone, there is always someone caring, watching and listening, and that if you see that someone is suffering, help them.
I’ll post again next Thursday, as I’m working on banners, profile pics, looking at cute pictures of Thomas Sanders on Sunday…
Have a nice life!
Kylee out xox