Hello there! Hope you’re doing well on this lovely Monday!
I apologise for my messy blogging schedule, I will be back into routine once school starts again. I’d just like to thank everyone who has followed me, commented and liked my posts so far, because at first it was slightly frustrating when I’d slave over a laptop and then have nobody read my blog. Even if I only get one view per post, I’m happy that my hard work isn’t going unnoticed.
So, as you can see by the title, I have an interest in becoming a Youtube creator/YouTuber. I’m not aiming for fame or money, but I’m aiming to make videos just as a hobby, just like this blog. My therapist says that ‘a busy Kylee is a healthy Kylee’, and I couldn’t agree more. The reason why I started this blog is to take my mind off of my problems, or perhaps discuss them in hopes that people like me relate. In the same way, I’m hoping that this YouTube channel idea can help some people, or maybe provide some sort of entertainment.
Something you may not know, is that I’ve been thinking of making YouTube videos since about mid – 2015. I bought a video camera, I started talking to myself in the mirror, I started setting my room up, and soon enough, everything was ready. I actually decided to film in February 2016, when I made my first video – where I was doing a demonstration on how to play a Taylor Swift song on guitar, along with a video of me just jamming out to Avril Lavigne. Later, in July 2016, I made a new channel and filmed a cover of Troye Sivan’s ‘Youth’, which got slightly more views than my first video. I was pretty stoked, but there were problems with both videos, like editing out jump cuts and the sound quality and such. It didn’t really bother me, as I got mostly good feedback on them.
As of now…
There are big problems standing in my way, and it’s not about money or time or my lack of Wi-Fi.
- I don’t like to edit because I’m insecure about hearing my own voice on tape.
- I get nervous and stutter and sweat when I try to film something.
- I get insecure about how I look on camera.
- I don’t know what to talk about.
So, the only thing standing in my way, is… me. Weird right? I could ramble on and on and on when I’m talking to a live audience, but when it comes to the internet, it’s a whole new world.
Thing is… I still really want to give it another go. It’s motivating me to get up in the morning, it’s what I think about most of the time, and, just maybe, I think it could help me feel proud of myself, if I produced something all by myself.
I’m asking for your help. How can I overcome my nerves? Is YouTube really that scary? Any tips, tricks or hacks? What do you think about this idea? Should I go for it? Please let me know in the comments, and you can check out the other post I made, My Top 10 YouTubers.
Have a lovely day, and all the love,