Suffocation. No breathing. Don't give a fuck if I cut my arm bleeding. Not exactly my tune lately, but Close. I didn't want to write a post that was just Negative Negative negative, but now that I get absolutely no views I guess I can do what I want. I wore a shirt to school every day for a week with "tylerink.blogspot.com" written on it. This was my last resort. And it didn't work. I used to view every girl in my classes as potential friends, possibly even girlfriends. Now I just view them as people I will never get. If I were to tell you things have been worse than they ever have lately, I'm not entirely sure it would be a lie.
The only thing that keeps me just above the water is video games. I spend hundreds on them each month and collect hundreds of them on my shelves. It keeps me busy. But I still don't know if it's enough of late. I get lots of homework each day. What's making me complete these assignments? Am I close to cracking, letting it all go and stop doing it? What happens if the motivation falls through to take showers, or brush my teeth? These are all damn good questions. Who's there to answer them? Me. And only me, God knows you fuckers would never say anything to me to help.
I'll tell you what else keeps me above water these days: the smilers. There are a handful of them, when I look at them, females who smile at me. Why do they smile at me? What is going on inside their heads at this moment?
Mysteries of life I suppose.
I'll tell you what else keeps me above water these days: the smilers. There are a handful of them, when I look at them, females who smile at me. Why do they smile at me? What is going on inside their heads at this moment?
Mysteries of life I suppose.
