10 Years to live.
The doctor came into the room, you have 10 years to live.
10 YEARS to live WHAT THE FUCK!?
10 Years to live.
I get in the car I speed home.
I am an engineer.
I know I can't bargain but I can fight.
I will fight the last I will fight the best.
To live 1 more day than ten years for my Children than for me.
Today they gave me chemo again, I am a wreck.
I go home puking.
Get in the car the kids go with Grandma.
Damn another weekend, lost to this sickness this shit.
Another weekend I can't teach my kids.
Fuck I need to get to work.
10 years to live, I better get to work.
So I fight another fucking day.
I take that day, it is the first day of my last day.
My kids get back I am happy but still sick.
Every little thing sets me off, I try to keep my cool.
The sickness wins and I am screaming, fuck I lose another day.
Today we play those sweet YES records I am soothed and so are my kids.
Today I win for us.
9 more years to live will I win one more day past nine.
Sick again, hospitals again.
I have 9 years, I am packing it in absolutely everything I can teach right now.
I know this is shell shock and this is hard.
I am living, I am living fast and hard and now 8 more years to live.
Still, I can't teach my kids the lessons I want them to know.
Still, I teach them as if this is my last day.
Is this my last day, am I going to make it.
Another hospital stay, the family comes and visits.
It was close am I going to get those 8 more years.
The clock is speeding up and there is still so much to do.
What can I do what will I do?
Get to it back to the grind 7 more years to live.
They told me six months after they told me ten years.
I won these three years through grace and will.
6 more years.
We get lots of the groundwork done my kids are going to grow up, they are going to have years I do not have.
I see what they can become.
They can become anything they work towards.
5 more years to live.
Joey's first guitar, he sleeps with it he eats with it.
It's his blanket and ax.
4 more years to live.
Playing every day.
Sometimes I am too hard.
The cancer sometimes wins.
My kids are going to be alright.
3 more years to live.
My children are not children anymore, they had to grow up too fast.
I know I am hard.
2 more years to live.
I Love my family with every fabric of my being, I will take days past those 9 years.
1 more year to live.
I packed a lifetime of experience into those ten years.
A lifetime of love, and a few too many hard lessons.
Maybe one day they will forgive me and know I did it all for love, somedays the cancer won. I am a man I make mistakes, I live by love alone.
It's the ninth year I don't have another year to go.
My life is in the rearview mirror now, more behind me than ahead of me.
My children are not children anymore, and they are going to be incredible.
They are incredible, I am not done yet.
I steal another year and I flip death off for one more round.
The sky gets everyone, one day though, and I have died but my story is not over.
For the love of my family, our story is not over.
