2020-03-19 17:43
I’m a bit concerned about whether I’m just ill or somehow managed to get the coronavirus. I’m sure that I will find out in a few days. I have a sore throat and a headache… Read More
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The online blog of a female qualified in media production. She happens to be diagnosed with Asperger’s Syndrome (form of autism) and borderline learning disabilities. She covers a range of topics in daily entries. Also a former activist and has ESP abilities.
2020-03-18 22:04
I have just had a bath and now chilling in front of the television. I had my hair done today. That means I can’t afford to do anything else. I may as well go into self-isolation mode l… Read More
2020-03-18 02:33
The cats have even gone out. I’m on my own chilling out for the first time today. I went out to attempt to get every day supplies earlier. I couldn’t get everything I needed beca… Read More
2020-03-16 22:41
I felt like I didn’t want to do anything today. I think I had a reasonable sleep. I woke up quite late but felt like I had properly slept. Although, I have attempted to do quite a lot… Read More
2020-03-15 22:02
I got a phone call from my GP surgery today. They then messaged me saying that all appointments are cancelled tomorrow due to the coronavirus outbreak. They’ve informed me to call the… Read More
2020-03-15 01:28
I slept for quite a while after I had my lunch. I had enough sleep last night but I was still tired when I woke up this morning. I attempted some of my tutor marked assignment earlier. I hav… Read More
2020-03-14 02:39
I woke up feeling quite down and that feeling lasted most of the day. I ended up cancelling my eyebrow wax appointment. I will tweezer the hair in the middle myself. I only went out tonight… Read More
2020-03-13 01:59
I’ve just noticed the date is Friday 13th. I don’t like the date but I’m not as superstitious as I used to be. Anyway, I own a black cat, they’re supposed to co… Read More
2020-03-12 07:13
I don’t normally fall asleep straight away and not wake up during the night. However, last night I actually slept properly. I know it’s rare because it doesn’t normally hap… Read More
2020-03-11 16:59
I didn’t have a lot of sleep last night which probably hasn’t helped how I have found today. I am having a few minutes sit down before I do the vacuuming. I woke up with dr… Read More
2020-03-10 11:13
I didn’t think that missing my antidepressants would be too risky for two days. I got up too late to take them so in my mind it’s less stressful for my mind if I don’t take… Read More
2020-03-09 22:51
My gmail address got deleted today. This means that this is the second time I’ve lost an email address. The yahoo one that I had also got deleted. I have now set up a new one with a di… Read More
2020-03-09 00:51
I’m hoping that I am not the only disabled person that finds themselves in this predicament. I must admit that it isn’t a huge issue to many people. I find it an issue due to wan… Read More
2020-03-08 01:42
I’ve just had a bath after getting home round about midnight. I’m just having a cup of tea and then going to sleep. 1am really isn’t that late for me. I’m sometimes a… Read More
2020-03-06 22:44
I’m as authentic and probably as transparent as a person can be. However, I completely feel like a fraud because it seems that fake is accepted more than those being their true selves… Read More
2020-03-06 14:34
I never slept at all last night. I stayed awake nearly all day but I can’t function without a nap. I won’t be able to get anything done if I don’t nap for about an hour. I… Read More
2020-03-06 03:31
I just finished some of my Open University module. I still can’t sleep because I’ve gone hot. I haven’t got the coronavirus because this is normal for me. I can be freezing… Read More
2020-03-04 21:17
I am aware that this blog may seem negative to others. Those that don’t know what it’s like to be autistic probably can’t see how I’m trying to show the reality of ou… Read More
2020-03-04 05:45
I just couldn’t sleep all night. I randomly just realised that I haven’t washed my hair this week. It’s not even got greasy yet. I will start to get an itchy scalp normally… Read More
2020-03-02 15:45
I barely sleep each night. I only had two hours sleep on average per night last week. I tracked it on my phone. I haven’t slept for more than 4 hours during any night recorded. I&rsquo&hell…Read More
2020-03-01 22:59
I have been sending out mail shots to random people on Instagram. I mostly received positive replies back from those recipients. However, I then got one person reply with quite an abrupt mes… Read More
2020-03-01 01:52
I have been out for the first time in nearly a week. That was positive because I was getting bored at home. I did have a slight migraine all day which wasn’t pleasant. I could function… Read More
2020-02-28 16:06
I got up at a decent hour today. I took my medication at the right time instead of too late in the day. I can’t say that I actually feel that great though. I haven’t been for a w… Read More
2020-02-27 21:58
I received a comment on a previous blog post earlier. I did reply but I do feel that I should expand on the topic in a separate post. The treatment options I was given in 2015 after I got pe… Read More
2020-02-27 07:35
I try to be positive in regards to progress but I’m still struggling with various aspects of mental illness. I’m not officially diagnosed with anything but autism. However, I fee… Read More
2020-02-26 18:00
I have always been the most accident prone person ever. I have also never been able to fix anything that broke while I was using it. However, today the trend shifted. The vacuum cleaner was… Read More
2020-02-26 01:28
I am still awake at a stupid hour because my sleep pattern is a mess. I just did my weekly shop online so that is out of the way. I feel sleepy tonight… that is something I don’… Read More
2020-02-23 22:38
I haven’t blogged for a few days because I was having a quiet weekend. I’ve not been at home all weekend. I have started going out more again. I’m not ready to do muc… Read More
2020-02-21 17:41
I woke up with a migraine. I feel a bit better now but I’m over tired due to my sleep pattern being a mess. I think that I’m starting to age too. I’m starting to find that… Read More
2020-02-20 21:22
I nearly didn’t do anything today. I’m feeling a bit yuck because my monthly is playing up quite a bit. I’m okay now but earlier even the housework was making me feel sick… Read More
2020-02-19 21:47
I was finishing off some notes on my Open University degree module last night when mister (cat) decides to bring an adult rat in with him to present to me as a gift. He has never managed to… Read More
2020-02-18 10:18
I had plans today but when I was getting ready to go out I felt sick with anxiety. I barely slept last night which is making me feel like absolute crap. I can’t function properly today… Read More
2020-02-16 22:19
I’m not sure that I can do my law degree. I don’t want to fail because I feel like I’m letting people down who need me to get into a position where I can change things afte… Read More
2020-02-15 18:35
I have so much to do but my depression is making it hard today. Even my hair is mostly in the state that it was before I straightened it the other day. The rain made it go back to a frizzy m… Read More
2020-02-15 02:36
I’m getting up at a reasonable time now. I did a bit of things that needed sorting around my flat. I do a lot but it seems to not make a vast amount of difference to the genuine state… Read More
2020-02-13 21:55
I decided to order my weekly shop online and get it delivered. I just don’t want the hassle of carrying baskets and bags. I will let someone else do that at least for this weekly shop… Read More
2020-02-11 16:36
I’ve tried to do some for my OU module today and bits that needed doing around the house. I even got up at a decent hour. I washed my hair which is an achievement when I feel this tire… Read More
2020-02-10 21:11
I see my life experiences as something that I deserved due to being an awful person growing up. I believe that karma is real even if your actions weren’t done on purpose. I lied… Read More
2020-02-09 21:43
In the United Kingdom, there currently isn’t any legal avenue to reverse legal adoptions which haven’t been fair but done to the correct legalities of the children’s act, a… Read More
2020-02-08 23:07
I have only just realised that I haven’t done half of the things I normally do this week. I’m feeling sick at the moment but I managed to go out earlier to get weekly food shop… Read More
2020-02-08 02:10
I can see that I have changed but it doesn’t seem to benefit me much. I can’t sleep at night. That is nothing new though. I used to want to go out but I now chose to be basically… Read More
2020-02-07 03:45
Sleeping isn’t easy when I have things on my mind. I’m going to have to go the doctors sooner rather than later. I can’t live in limbo not knowing if I’m pregnant or… Read More
2020-02-06 15:44
I’m sorry but time doesn’t heal things. I can confirm that it is a myth. The only time that time can possibly heal is in circumstances where you completely lose your memory. I&rs&hell…Read More
2020-02-05 21:26
I decided that I had to make an effort to get a few things done today. I literally did most of my housework after getting up late. I just made it to where I had to be on time because my cat… Read More
2020-02-05 01:03
I have struggled quite badly to do things today because my energy levels have been low. I did half of what I had planned to do and even then I felt like I was fighting myself. The most annoy… Read More
2020-02-04 01:18
I didn’t have a bath this evening because I was tired. I went to bed about half 11. That is early for me. I fell asleep quite quickly but woke up just an hour later. I needed the toile… Read More
2020-02-02 17:33
I don’t have a lot of time right now but this needs to be said. I have experienced two decades of this attitude. This is the point where I say something. I have to air my views before… Read More
2020-02-02 06:59
I made the mistake of searching paranormal sightings in the locality of where I live on the search engine beginning with G. Legally I cannot say the name because it’s classed as advert… Read More
2020-02-01 22:52
I have the worse ever sleep pattern at the moment. I got into a pattern of getting up around 3pm. I can’t get to sleep until gone 5am. I then wake up a few times during the day but fal… Read More
2020-01-31 18:56
I have read the complaint reply which was sent to my probation officer. They are giving the reason that I the complaint was put in out of time. I wasn’t told that it has been taken out… Read More
2020-01-30 21:03
The fluid in my knee is refusing to drain trying to get it out the natural way. The anti inflammatory gel hasn’t worked well either today. I was better earlier but the stretchy feeling… Read More
2020-01-29 23:05
I think that my knee is a bit better but I’m not sure yet. I know that sounds confusing but I’m going to be resting it most of tomorrow. I’m not great at sitting stil… Read More
2020-01-29 04:33
I randomly felt sad and started crying at 4am. I was thinking about things that were quite on the dark side. I’m also over heated because the cats have decided to sleep either side of… Read More
2020-01-28 19:32
I attempted to go for a walk but couldn’t go far due to my knee. I’m wearing my pj bottoms when I’m home because it’s more comfortable. I need to go to the doctors be… Read More
2020-01-28 01:12
I’m not only writing about this due to my own experience with one of these orders but because I have noticed a huge increase in the number of restraining orders being routinely handed… Read More
2020-01-27 00:36
The above photo is my swollen knee. I have been trying to fix it for 2 days now. I just want the fluid to come off of my knee! I even have some swelling at the bottom of my thigh… Read More
2020-01-26 02:57
I am feeling frustrated tonight. I should be asleep which isn’t helping right now. It has been tiring trying to function with a swollen knee. I don’t go to the gp unless it gets… Read More
2020-01-24 04:21
I had to go for a four hour nap this evening because I was just overwhelmingly exhausted. I haven’t slept at night properly for a while and it has started to make me feel constantly ti… Read More
2020-01-22 17:35
I did some housework before it built up too much. I haven’t been out today. I needed a break from the outside world. I’m just tired due to hormones making me feel drained. I have… Read More
2020-01-21 21:47
Time is supposed to be a healer right? Then how come things are still the way that they have been for a few years? Isn’t it time that things changed? I’ve worked hard for a long… Read More
2020-01-20 19:49
I went for a long walk to the supermarket and carried two bags of shopping back. I could have taken the car but I needed the fresh air to wake me up. I am now very awake because the air is q… Read More
2020-01-18 22:58
I have done a bit of my OU assignment today but got up late again. I haven’t been out but I went for a walk to get a few bits yesterday evening. I just about saw day light today but I… Read More
2020-01-17 19:13
I haven’t been out of my flat in two days. That is rare for me. I normally at least go for a walk. I heard the busy road which runs down the side of the block of flats when I opened th… Read More
2020-01-16 20:11
I have been depressed today. I spent the whole day trying to make myself wash my hair. I’ve finally managed to do the task. I’m not feeling too great so I cancelled my plans tomo… Read More
2020-01-15 23:05
I woke up this morning with a reluctant attitude to the day ahead. I sat on the sofa for a few hours after eating and drinking (medication means I cannot skip meals otherwise it apparently d… Read More
2020-01-14 15:57
I got up at a decent hour this morning. However, it is now only half 3 and I’ve had to go nap. It just got physically draining to stay awake. I’ve done some things which I saw as… Read More
2020-01-14 02:33
I didn’t sleep well last night, nothing unusual, which caused me to wake up about midday today. I was woken up by a parcel delivery. The same company dropped both my new iron and vibra… Read More
2020-01-12 14:04
I fell asleep earlier and had the most disturbing nightmare I’ve had in a while. It hit quite close to home due to loosely mirroring waking life. A while ago my cousin on dads side nev… Read More
2020-01-11 23:28
I actually got up at a stupidly late time today. I didn’t mean to fall asleep but I did by accident. I went to bed early last night but still woke up at nearly 2am and then couldn&rsqu&hell…Read More
2020-01-10 22:32
I struggle a lot sometimes. I don’t know how I’m going to get a break but I know that I need to get away. I just feel completely fed up with this area. I may have grown up here b… Read More
2020-01-10 14:35
I did a bit of housework but I got tired. I didn’t sleep last night until early this morning. 7am to 10.30am is barely any sleep. I worked it out and realised why the tiredness has jus… Read More
2020-01-09 20:42
I just want to express my concern regarding all this new stalking legislation. I have tried to contact organisations in charge of proposals directly but haven’t had a response. I&rsquo&hell…Read More
2020-01-09 17:53
I got up to go out for a few bits but when I got back the tiredness hit me. I didn’t get housework done but I’m probably going to be asleep until the morning after I do lay down… Read More
2020-01-09 13:38
I got woken up several times by my cat last night. I managed to get up at a decent hour but I don’t feel like doing anything. I can’t not do anything because things need tidying… Read More
2020-01-08 19:36
I had to stop myself falling asleep on the sofa at lunchtime otherwise I wouldn’t have got anything done. I’m trying to drink water more often than tea because I am trying to not… Read More
2020-01-07 21:13
I didn’t get up until extremely late despite being awake early. I went for a long walk to wake up and get a few bits after I finally got up. I walked back with two bags reasonably full… Read More
2020-01-07 05:39
I did sleep properly during the night but got woken up by Mister. He was telling me that his food bowl was empty at half 3 in the morning. He’s been let outside to burn off his energy… Read More
2020-01-06 17:17
I managed to reset my sleep pattern. Well, ish. I now have my medication set to the proper time that it’s supposed to be taken because I took them in the early morning before I had a f… Read More
2020-01-05 22:55
I slept the whole day again. I feel so ashamed because I never meant to sleep that long. I missed my medication again. I went for a walk but now I’m feeling on edge again. I need to ge… Read More
2020-01-05 01:16
I’m technically nocturnal at the moment. I actually didn’t get up until 4pm today. I feel like a failure but I don’t feel as tired. I managed to get things done despite not… Read More
2020-01-04 07:11
I have taken my antidepressants at an early hour when I had breakfast cereal. I didn’t sleep since exactly 2:22am (the time when I checked my mobile). It is now nearly 7am. I lay awake… Read More
2020-01-02 23:37
Although I had promised myself that I would get up at a decent hour today… this wasn’t what eventually materialised. I was awake at 12 but fell asleep until half 3. That wasn&rs&hell…Read More
2020-01-02 00:59
I went for my first walk of the new year today. I didn’t go until after dark because I got up late (didn’t sleep again last night) but I still got out at some point. I was wound… Read More
2019-12-31 19:08
I’m aware that this is hours early but I don’t think that I will be staying awake to post at midnight. I am already in my Onesie and planning to go to bed probably two hours befo… Read More
2019-12-31 14:33
I have done half my housework but I’m having a 5 minute break with the cat who is asleep next to me on the sofa. They both fell asleep while I was doing things. I have done the huge ta… Read More
2019-12-31 01:54
I can still feel my migraine but I can function again. I desperately need to get some cleaning done tomorrow because everything looks grubby. I also had to improvise when it came to what I w… Read More
2019-12-29 23:33
I has been ill all day with the worst migraine I’ve had in a while. I had to go back to bed every time I got up to attempt to eat and drink. I was only able to have a sandwich and only… Read More
2019-12-29 01:05
I got up twice today. Once this morning and this afternoon. I was woken up by a Jehovah’s Witness this morning. I answered it because I was expecting post that might need my signature… Read More
2019-12-28 02:30
I have reached that stage where I do not care enough to have any hope for the future. I’m extremely exhausted constantly and everything seems to randomly go wrong just when things were… Read More
2019-12-27 06:18
I am totally fed up with acting like I’m ‘okay’. I haven’t been okay for a long time since going through losing my son to ‘forced’ adoption. I have tried… Read More
2019-12-26 22:10
I knew that Christmas was going to be an effort. I’m absolutely exhausted to the point where I am just going to sleep in my clothes for the night. I will just have a bath in the mornin… Read More
2019-12-25 20:58
I don’t want to be stressing for no reason but I’ve had every test including several pregnancy tests. I don’t want to go too far into personal stuff but my monthlies have b… Read More
2019-12-24 23:23
Have a wonderful Christmas from all of the team at Diary Of A Painfully Shy Introvert Blog :) Read More
2019-12-24 08:32
I was awake most of the night due to things playing on my mind. It’s not like I don’t feel myself nodding off. I kept thinking about things I cannot repeat on here because it&rsq&hell…Read More
2019-12-22 21:31
I got my first Open University assignment back this evening. I got 72%, alongside being informed that I lost marks by lack of answer development and mentioning an act that the mark scheme di… Read More
2019-12-21 03:07
In my opinion, Christmas is just a day traditionally made for an overload of commercialism. I might be getting cynical as I get older but it seems too hyped up nowadays. There are so many pe… Read More
2019-12-20 04:39
I may have woken up at half 3 in the morning but I actually fell asleep at a decent hour. I had to sleep at about 11pm because the tiredness just hit me. That doesn’t happen often. I n… Read More
2019-12-17 23:26
I wasn’t going to add a new entry until after Christmas but something came up that touched a nerve. Those of us with autism and/or mental illnesses are definitely discriminated against… Read More
2019-12-15 02:35
I cleaned up and vacuumed a bit earlier. I need to wash my hair but that is a massive job due to how thick it has become. It takes a patience mood to spend 3 hours shampooing, conditioning a… Read More
2019-12-13 22:28
I’m not being overly sensitive about certain things. I lost the support service that I had a few years ago due to what happened. The council stopped my support being allowed to attend… Read More
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