Many of us know that at some points of our lives we do not manage to have all the answers. We are at times at our Lowest Lows and we would always want to be always at our hightest highs. But it is not Christmas everyday.

And right now my dear, I have to tell you I am at my one of my lowest lows. I have to move but I cannot move. I have to jump but where to jump to? I have to shake my way of Thinking but how and where to start?

Here I am wondering if 2018, Year of the Dog, is really MY YEAR. Career-wise, the first half is really, really, not that good. I am down now with sickness and will see the doctor again not until Monday. I do not have my voice back yet. I have been out from work for some days as well due to other sicknesses. And what’s killing me? It is demotivating me and keeping my self-esteem down the line. Good thing that I had that summer break with the family that keeps me wanting to go home instead.

This is definitely bad. This is not a good sign but I do hope my second half of the year will compensate all the bad decisions I made. And that I will find very soon the answers of this Paralyzed thinking:

I have to move but I cannot move. I have to jump but where to jump to? I have to shake my way of thinking but how and where to start?