I had been Angry with God for a long time without even realizing it!

 How did I find out?

I went to church ( I don’t know why all these things happen in church) and I was listening to this lady give a very interesting testimony. Strangely, out of nowhere I felt this overwhelming bitterness well up inside me. It was weird because I was quite happy at that time, and my thoughts I would say were happy.

The bitterness, however, didn’t stop. I reached home and I could still feel it inside me. It got so bad, I had to sit outside in the backyard to prevent myself from causing havoc in the house.

Being the ‘INTP’ personalty type that I am, I spent the rest of the night trying to analyze this pain I was feeling. It just wasn’t adding up because over the past months I had forgiven those that had offended me, and I had let go of the past.

So what was this?

At first I had blamed this on hormones, but I knew in my heart that that wasn’t the case. Then I decided to vent it out to my mum and to my brother… and at that very moment it clicked.

I was angry at God.

I was angry at Him because things weren’t going according to plan. I was angry because He didn’t come to me the way I was expecting Him to come to me.

Realizing this,  I decided to release that Anger to Him (later on) and it was like He washed it away. I told you in a previous post that He at times reveals all the dirt in your life before He washes it away. And yes that’s exactly what He did.

So here are things I’ve learned from being angry with God

1. Anger takes you a step backwards

When I was angry, I found myself complaining a lot, demotivated, and easily agitated by small things. It was almost like it was contaminating every other area in my life..

2. Anger may result from you comparing yourself to other’s

I was angry at God because I felt that He was moving in other people’s lives and not mine. I kept on hearing and seeing amazing things from other people while I felt that my life was just plain simple and dry. As a result, I kept on complaining and demanding things from God which, of course, didn’t bear fruit.

3.Anger leads to rebellion

A lot of people decide not believe in the love of God just because they are angry. It’s not that they don’t believe in God they just chose not to care. In that time, I felt myself wanting to rebel seriously against God… I could have easily done it to be honest.

So people whatever unresolved anger that is left in your heart DEAL WITH IT IMMEDIATELY. Anger can really MESS up ones life’s up.

Nowadays, I find that a lot of people celebrate it but it shouldn’t be celebrated because the more you become comfortable with it the more and more it grows in your heart and the more and more you easily slip into negativity…

And I’m sure you all know how difficult it can be to deal with negativity.

“In your anger do not sin” : Do not let the sun go down while you are still angry,

 and do not give the devil a foothold.

 Anyone who has been stealing must steal no longer, but must work, doing something useful with their own hands, that they may have something to share with those in need.

 Do not let any unwholesome talk come out of your mouths, but only what is helpful for building others up according to their needs, that it may benefit those who listen.

 And do not grieve the Holy Spirit of God, with whom you were sealed for the day of redemption.

Get rid of all bitterness, rage and anger, brawling and slander, along with every form of malice.

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