February 17th, 2018

My Dear Friend, V,

It felt a comforting, warm Touch after a long time after reading your email. This personal touch I had been missing for a long time now. I started this Ediary in quest of my that feeling of Love, which we all have been seeking here and there for a long time.

I was lucky enough to get a few gems of a friends who showered their un-conditional love and support upon me, without even meeting me or seeing me in person. It was part of their loving nature and personality, and I was lucky to touch that un-touched part of their personality. Recently, unfortunately, all doors of my beloved friends got closed on me. Their love was my sole reason of existence and now I have lost everything all of a sudden. There is no reason for my existence now, and there are no more memories to be captured in this eDiary. Old memories, whatever recorded, would remind me to be  happy momentarily, but then would also lead to realization that “this was all fake”… and “does not exist now”, which eventually would become more of a torture than anything else. Memories may fade away… feelings don’t. At least, not for me ! Being an emotional guy, my life and I are driven by that feeling of love, no matter from where it originates, cyber world or physical world.

With time, and the attachment with a few of my readers, who eventually became friends to me, I had developed similar feelings for a lot of my friends who were real for me even though they might have assumed me only a virtual entity.

I am glad that you could grab the essence from my eDiary, which most of the people fail to understand. It is taken mostly as a medium of entertainment and probably just another porn blog. Little did they realize the happiness or excitement they see reflecting after reading my story, is actually part of their inner-self and that is something we all have been looking for. A few of us got lucky to be blessed with it in real life, others still are in pursuit of this love and happiness, without ever realizing the very source of this love is within our hearts. It is us.

Every person has a different priority and perspective of life. If my eDiary could help anyone find a few moments of happiness, or could somehow throw a light in darkness to make them see things clearly in their life tracks, I feel happy for them.  Besides, I feel more happy and content when I see a few golden hearts and sensible souls like yours, who make me believe, I am not all alone yet.

I thank you for your kind words of appreciation and your lovely letter.

Yours,

Desi

(PS: Sorry Buddy ! Didn’t ask for your permission to make your lovely email part of my eDiary but as there is no personal information, I guess, you would not have denied it either).

February 15th, 2018

Hello Desi Munda,

I apologise for replying so lately to your friendly approach, owing to my busy life (BUT probably less busy than yours… ).Thanks for giving so much love and importance. These “small gestures” of friendship help inspire me and become more optimistic THAN yesterday.

Learnt that you will no longer be writing the series anymore. Felt disheartened, but it’s fine, because you gave the reason for that too, respect your decision. BTW, thanks for giving all of us an opportunity to learn that the GAY WORLD is not all about sex, but LOVE too. May GOD bless you.

The word “badmaashi” was used in the context to explain the forbidden yet cute & humanly desires to have intimacy with that SOMEONE..

Sorry to disturb you at a time when you had bid adieu to your online friends. Pay my best regards to your parents and my love to the young.

(P.S.:- DON’T WORRY, GOD DOES WHAT IS BEST FOR US, BELIEVE IN YOUR INSTINCTS, THEY ARE RIGHT!)

Regards with friendship(),

V