So of course it's been ages since I've posted anything 🙈. ..... Yes the struggle of inconsistency.As I lie here in bed....sleep evading my eyelids....I must say my Heart is quite light.I've been looking back...reminiscing....ruminating on past relationships and the many roles I've played being somebody's significant other/Plaything.Although I have managed to successfully walk away from things that did not serve my heart.....I dread to think of the times I've allowed "my heart" to remain in situationships (mind you I can only call them that now because the doorways of my heart are no longer imprisoned by "Love").....But,see I've accepted disrespect,being taken for granted,feeling unappreciated,abuse all in the name of "Love".
Guess what?Every road has an ending or a turn....as many times as I've excused bad behavior/treatment there was always that breaking point where I had to pick myself up and be real with my heart!.I had to say No More!.I had to say oh you fool when will you give up?! There's something about dissapointment that makes you hold on to something even when holding on is the very cause of pain.🤔 And so everytime I come to a crossroad,I remind myself of all the times I walked away from something/someone that at one point I felt was impossible.....But look at me now!I know what True Love looks like just as much as I'm able to recognize Disrespect as a lack of love . Now I'm able to tell my heart.....you don't have to run around this mountain a couple dozen times.Now I'm able to lovingly remove myself from anything/anyone that does not serve the person I am.Now I'm able to see Love with eyes wide open....as either being present or being absent.Now I refuse to accept anything that portrays itself to be Love yet does not Respect,Value,Honour,Appreciate the heart that it vows to Love.
As I embark on a new journey of Life......I'm absolutely ready to give all this good lovin I've got stored up for this little person that chose to live,grow inside me.And so I wait.......to play the best role of my life.Mommy to my Bug.
Be blessed!Be a Blessing! 😚