It’s been a couple of months since I’ve updated my blog. Nothing has changed for us. Our situation is the same. We’re still infertile. In April, we discovered that my husband has azoospermia. He has consulted 3 different andrologists since then. He has obstructive azoospermia…i.e. sperms are being produced in his testicles but are unable to reach the ejaculate because of an obstruction. Like I’ve mentioned in my previous blog entries, this has been caused because my husband had undergone a hernia Repair Surgery before marriage.
A very complicated duct repair surgery can be performed to repair the blockage, but its success results are very poor, so, his doctors have ruled out this option completely. They have all recommended going for assisted reproduction…IVF, more specifically, ICSI (Intracytoplasmic Sperm Injection ). ICSI is performed in severe cases of male infertility.
ICSI is very similar to conventional IVF in that gametes (eggs and sperm) are collected from each partner. The difference between the two procedures is the method of achieving fertilisation. In conventional IVF, the eggs and sperm are mixed together in a dish and the sperm fertilises the egg ‘naturally’.
ICSI involves the injection of a single sperm directly into a mature egg.
According to doctors, we will never be able to conceive naturally. However, we have not yet given up hope. Before thinking of IVF, we’re looking at alternative medicines and treatments to treat his condition.
I also suffer from severe hormonal disbalance, my cycle is a mess. It seems like out of 30 days a month, I have bleeding for 15 days. Earlier I would get spotting for a few days before the actual flow began, nowadays, it takes more than a week for the flow to begin. I’m at my wits’ end, I dont know what to do. Sonography reports show that my follicles are forming and maturing naturally. I’ve taken allopathic, biochemic, homeopathic, ayurvedic and unani medicines to treat my hormonal disbalance but to no avail. Rather, the problem seems to be getting worse and worse as days pass by.
As a Muslimah, you can not fast or pray during those days of the month and the maximum duration of a Menstrual Cycle (according to the Shariah) is 10 days and 10 nights. If it lasts beyond that, it is considered an illness. You have to take a bath and begin praying and fasting normally after that time period. Earlier, my menstrual cycle would get over in 6, 7 or maximum 8 days, spotting and bleeding all included. Nowadays , it goes on and on and on. I’m tired. I want to be normal once again.
Every year after Ramadan, I only had to make up 6 or 7 and sometimes, 8 fasts but this time, I have to make up 10 fasts. It’s weird how little control I have over my body. It disturbs my spiritual life, it disturbs my mental health, it disturbs my physical well-being, it disturbs my love life.
Our faith is the only thing that keeps us holding on during these troubled times. Confusion and doubt overtake us but we know Our Lord will create a path for us when there seems no way and He will open the doors even though there is no key. He brings forth dawn after the darkness of the night, so He Alone will remove our obstacles and bring about the best solution for our worries. He is Al-Fattah … The Opener of Ways.
