I discovered that I am suffering...from Obssessive Compulsive Disorder some days back. My dreaded fear has come true...the discovery has authenticated something I already knew all along...for the symptoms were so obvious. I have no control over my mind...or rather myself. I do things which I know are silly...but I 'have to' do them. Washing hands...obssessed with a particular thought...obssessed with looking at the page numbers at the bottom of the page while studying for my exams...thereby straining my eyes...and osing concentration. I say to my eyes 'Concentrate...dont look at the page numbers'...but they just wouldnt listen. In frustration, I would just shut my book...and cry away to sleep. I Havent written my exams the way i always wanted to. I havent given it my best...though I spent hours awake to study. I was ready to put in the hardwork...to sweat my brows...but my eyes and mind had thought otherwise.
I feel Trapped Inside my own body. No body knows it...and nobody is gonna understand my problem. i sit here...lost in tears. how can I get what I want...when i have no control over myself? I genuinely need your help...God. Please Show Me The Way...
