I've neglected this blog for a while, I Guess it's because I didn't have anything to say. But I'm back!

I went to work on Monday in a funk. It was a combination of the fact that I had to work on a holiday, and I had my period. I was late and I walk in on one of the nurses calling up to the staffing office asking where I am. So now the funk has worsened because I've been reported. While the nurse is on the phone I look over and my friend, we'll call her Becky, looked at me with this smirk. I guess the smirk meant "Look at this bitch calling on you", but I wasn't in the mood. I avoided her the entire day...just because. I did talk to my other friend, we'll call her Suzy, just because.

I guess I was wrong. How would I feel if the tables were turned? But then again she had annoyed me, and that's how I react to people I'm annoyed/pissed with...I ignore them. I guess I was also annoyed because of her comment to me about my hair, which I so dearly love, the day before.

I got a haircut, which looks fabulous...I've gotten a lot of compliments. I always wear my hair shorter, but I grow it out in the summer so I can pin it up during July and August when the heat and humidity are killer, I know that sounds backwards...but it works. Anyway, we're leaving work and she says "Aww man Gina, why did you cut your hair?!", like it's a fucking horrible thing. I told her that I love my hair this way, and she says "Oh, well I liked it longer", well that sucks for you doesn't it Becky?? Now maybe you're saying...well what's so wrong about that? It's the way she said it! Maybe I'm just too sensitive.

Anyway, I'm going to have to see her this weekend, and I'm honestly not looking forward to it. It's like now everything about her bothers me. Like the fact that, I want more from her than she gives me. Now now...don't think this is turning into some lesbian thing because it isn't. It's the fact that she's so lame and doesn't want to do anything, and I thought we were supposed to be friends. Friends do things with each other don't they? A few weeks ago, there was a stripper cruise. My friend Suzy had gone to a show and brought the flyer for us to see. I was down to go because I hadn't been to a show in about four years. So I told Becky that we should go. Her response was "Why would I want to go when I have a boyfriend already?" WTF!!! What does having a boyfriend have to do with anything?? You're not going to have sex with the strippers! You're just going to have fun. So later on I'm still trying to convince her to go, she says that she's "not into that"...trying to come across as this pure person. This is so odd because she watches porn, BET Uncut, and is living with, not married to, and fucking her boyfriend! So she calls her boyfriend to talk to him about it, because she must tell him EVERYTHING. So she put him on the phone with Suzy. He asked Suzy why she wanted to go to a strip show when we could all go to an amusement park, arcade or go to the Virgin Mega Store and listen to music. The sad/funny thing about that...he was serious. If I want to listen to music I'll put on the damn radio...as far as amusement parks go...just...NO!

Do you people see what I'm dealing with here?! A brainwashed minion, whose only idea of fun is playing video games or listening to music...with her boyfriend! There are probably things that annoy the shit out of her about me, but who cares.

Ok, so I'm rambling now. But I'd like to get anyone's opinion on this, because I'm sort of torn. Should I apologize for Monday...should I talk to her about how I feel...or should I pretend like this never happened? Please help kind folks!