From Searching To Inventing

From Searching to Inventing.  What?  What am I searching for and what am I inventing.

Making one small decision, to move to Mexico and do some traveling set off a chain reaction of other decisions of which some weren’t all that small.  I quit my job, I sold my house of 13 years, I paid off all my debts, and I bought an SUV.  All because I thought it would be great to live in Mexico and travel.

Well, living in Mexico has been great, I love it here.  Travel has been a big learning curve……it’s not as simple as point and go when you have to consider a budget and not acquire any debt.



That one small decision goes further and deeper than I just mentioned.  It’s also personal.  I really didn’t see that one coming.  Personal.

Someone asked me once, “How was I doing?”.  My reply was I’m searching for myself.  It seemed the right thing to say although a little sixtyish. I found myself like a fish out of water!  It was an awkward time when I was asked the question because I still under the fire of change.  I really don’t have anything to compare it to because everything else seemed to have been a growth of what came before, an order of natural progression.  But this was and is out of the ordinary.  I that’s magnified by my not wanting it to be ordinary.



I believe what I’m doing is right for me, but I believe my response was a bit out of ignorance.  Now, I’m not calling myself a naughty name, I’m only stating I didn’t know better.  Now, I do……sort of.  Allow me to further explain.

From Searching To Inventing

I’m not attempting a philosophical pitch here…..it’s my moment.

And that moment isn’t about finding myself, it’s about inventing myself.  My imagination minus all the props and obligations of my previous stage of life has brought about a bit of Chaos.  Yes, chaos!  I’m in disarray.  Sort of. I’ve got my head about me, but I’ll wake up occasionally accompanied by the thought of ‘where the hell am I and how did I get here!’.

I think that’s good.

I’m on more than one journey it seems.



I’m not dragging the weight of what I used to do or who I thought I should be.  Life is wide open.  Thanks to this small decision.

I get to play with me.  No, not that way, although that is an option…….  I get to explore all that I can dream with no boundaries.  You ever thought of being in that position just as I’ve stated.  I know I didn’t, this wasn’t anything but a side thought, now, it’s the focus.

I’m inventing me.

It’s not as simple a task as I thought…..but no invention is!  There’s always opposition in nature to change.  There lies the creativity.

Chaos brings about a new norm.  And while I’m assuming I’m creating a new norm, I also expect never to be without chaos.



I’ve made a quality decision to embrace chaos.  Chaos is free!  I like free!

One thing I find is that airports are chaotic.  Going into a new one is always an adventure!  Unwanted as it is, I’m learning to accept that, that’s just the nature of traveling.  I’m sure to expect more.

In this inventing of me, I find that if I don’t say no, that I say yes to a hell of a lot more opportunities in life.

From Searching To Inventing

The search lies in the traveling, the inventing lies within me.

Peace, love, and beaches,

John

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