Well things are not going well, i am having real trouble gaining any momentum on my current goals. to be honest i thought getting my car would have helped me a great deal but sadly it has just hindered my progress.
I put it down to the feeling that i have sand beneath my feet, I have lost my sense of being safe and secure and in a solid place. Things are changing and the world beneath me is shifting its a very uneasy feeling for me.
I have tried several things since my last post, and i never make it further than maybe half a day into anything i attempt.
I am really looking for some advice, i know i have several regular readers and it would be much appreciated that you could pass on some ideas, i am at a loss of what to do.
I really need something or someone to push me forward, i have lost my reason to move forward. And as i sit here writing this i fall further into my depression. to a point i have not been in over 18 months, i miss people and my old life, I'm sick of crying into my pillow at night hoping for someone that doesn't exist to appear and comfort me.
I had a dream 2 days ago and woman appeared, i felt safe as she took my hand it was nice and even though she did not speak a word i knew she was their to guide me.
maybe its my minds way of hinting at me, or my subconscious working overtime.
