I really have to be better about blogging. I have been Struggling with finding something to say recently or I have been more private about what I am putting out there (i.e. ..posting about my personal issues in my LJ, etc..) .. but I really want to be able to just post here. I think one of the problems is that I feel like everything I put here needs to be profound. What is the point of writing here if it doesn’t mean anything, right? Although part of me needs to feel like I can do or post what I want here without feeling like if it will be accepted by everyone else in the world wide web. 

Dexter’s original due date, May 27th, came & went. I had a good day that day. It’s the funny thing about grief, it usually doesn’t hit me until I least expect me. Of course, the last few weeks I have been struggling with certain fears, insecurities & issues within my relationship with my fiance. I won’t get into details here, but I was just completely weighed down with worry & a little bit of heartache. However, I took some steps in changing myself, instead of trying to change anyone else & I think that is giving me the change in direction I really needed. I plan on writing more about that in future blog posts. Mainly .. I’m going to be talking about a Proverbs 31 woman, wife & mother & how I am using that as a guideline to change my life. 

Talk to you all soon! 

♥ Leslie