Well for a little while, I thought I’d jinxed it. I thought my own Desperate optimism had caused the universe to notice that I was jollying along rather too well, and had jumped in to snatch back any last remaining morsel of hope I had left. But we might be alright. Turns out, my 30 year old has a few, unresolved Relationship issues, having come out of a long term relationship earlier this year. Initially I thought this was the end, my previous relationship experience has taught me that small hitches like this usually mean its time to start getting over it and getting under someone else. I won't lie, I was pretty gutted. I try to avoid blogging during times of emotional trauma such as this as what should be a thoughtful reflection actually becomes nothing more than my emotional vomit spewed onto a computer screen in the uncomfortable form of words and letters. And so I have waited until now, as I am now aware that this is not the end, it is a mere speed bump in the road of this relationship which simply requires me to give the man a bit of space and take things slowly. Of course, I’ve still got my wary hat on, I don’t trust easily at the best of times, and when there are feelings for a significant ex involved it certainly doesn’t persuade me to let my guard down any quicker. I’m not even sure that dating a man who clearly isn’t over his ex is a good idea. If I suggest waiting until he feels ‘ready’ to date again, I run the risk of someone else jumping in and beating me to it, if I don’t, he could freak out and decide he’d rather be single, or worse, realise he made a mistake and go running back to this unknown ex. I feel like my only option is to let him take the reigns and play by his rules, whilst trying to demonstrate how wonderful I am to spend time with in a somewhat desperate attempt to convince him that I could be a great choice of replacement girl, something that doesn’t sit comfortably with me. I think the most sensible thing to do is talk to him about it, and find out exactly where he’s at. So on our next date, that is what I’ll do, whilst wearing a low cut top and a lot of perfume.