It took 4 months for me to recover after the Relationship that I had. I was very young when I had my serious relationship which was my first and last as of this time.

I can see butterflies every time we're together. I loved that person fully but i later on realized that i wasn't giving my everything because I still have lies to protect my privacy.

From the beginning, I already new that it won't workout because someone came first before me.

I accepted that I can't compete with my loved one's spouse.

Yes, I used to be the "third party".

Despite the circumstances that we encountered, we stood still and acted as if superman against the villains.

There are no concrete villains, it was our personal issues that hinder us from living happily.



We were dating that time when my partner's phone rang and and hurriedly answered. The call was no big deal to me. I'm understanding when it come work and family.

"Got to go! my son, needs a parent in his school's PTCA meeting"

I was so down when i heard that, I was speechless for a moment until I uttered "Go, your son needs you"



After that incident, i realized that I can't stay as number 2 forever. I need to let go.

I don't want to give choices that will hurt me, instead, it will be better if I'm the one who will give the answer even if it hurts...