Here I sit writing my previous post about depression, having depressing thoughts. I am listening to KEZK and the Delilah show. Sarah McLachlan's song "In the Arms of an Angels" comes on. It reminds me of all the things I have and those who are no longer with us. You'd think that was depressing, but let me explain.
I once had a friend, Kendra. She was bright, blonde, funny, a great mother and a very hard worker. When I met her, I was a property manager of an office building. She worked for a tenant of mine as a recruiter. We started talking one day when we had a terrible snow and her son came with her to work. We hung out watching the snow and discussing our lives. I was newly married and didn't have any children. She was newly separated and dealing with a horrible ex-husband. He was abusive and was making her life miserable. She had literally hit the bottom and didn't have much of a shovel to dig her way out. But here she was so full of life, smart and beautiful. The kind of person I always wanted to be. She ended up leaving her job to take a job with a more stable salary. Unfortunately, we lost touch. I asked her former boss about her occasionally. She was so devoted to her son that I always wished her only the best.
Fast forward a few years.....I had left my job and ran into her former boss by accident. As I always had, I asked about Kendra. I was shocked as what I heard. She had been killed by a drunk driver. The saddest part was how it all unfolded. She had made it through her divorce. She met someone and had gotten engaged. From what I understand, her fiancee was going to officially adopt her son when they married. It was Christmas time. The new family had gone downtown to look at the Christmas lights. On their way back, a drunk driver ran a red light and demolished their car. The only survivor was her son who was sitting in the back seat.
The song "In the arms of an angel" reminds me of her. The lyrics "Spend all your time waiting for that second chance. For the break that will make it ok." really speak of her. Her life was finally on the right track and yet it ended so quickly. I'm not one to believe in religion but for my own sake I have to believe that the angels were there holding her that night.
Yes, I sit here in tears remembering a friend who I wish I had taken the time to get to know better. People come and go from your life on a daily basis. Make certain that you let those people know how important they are to you today. You don't have to be "best friends forever" for someone to have an impact on your life. Kendra definitely impacted my life greatly and her time in my life was extremely brief. All of these tears are worth it if it makes me that much more thankful of what I have and how far I've come.
I've included the lyrics....
Spend all your time waiting for that second chance
For the break that will make it ok
There's always some reason to feel not good enough
And it's hard at the end of the day
I need some distraction, oh beautiful release
Memories seep from my veins
They may be empty and weightless, and maybe
I'll find some peace tonight
In the arms of the Angels, fly away from here
From this dark, Cold Hotel Room, and the endlessness that you fear
You are pulled from the wreckage of your Silent Reverie
You're in the arms of an Angel; may you find some comfort here
So tired of the straight line, and everywhere you turn
There's vultures and thieves at your back
The storm keeps on twisting, you keep on building the lies
That you make up for all that you lack
It don't make no difference, escaping one last time
It's easier to believe
In this sweet madness, oh this glorious sadness
That brings me to my knees
In the arms of the Angels, far away from here
From this dark, cold Hotel Room, and the endlessness that you fear
You are pulled from the wreckage of your silent reverie
In the arms of an Angel; may you find some comfort here.
I once had a friend, Kendra. She was bright, blonde, funny, a great mother and a very hard worker. When I met her, I was a property manager of an office building. She worked for a tenant of mine as a recruiter. We started talking one day when we had a terrible snow and her son came with her to work. We hung out watching the snow and discussing our lives. I was newly married and didn't have any children. She was newly separated and dealing with a horrible ex-husband. He was abusive and was making her life miserable. She had literally hit the bottom and didn't have much of a shovel to dig her way out. But here she was so full of life, smart and beautiful. The kind of person I always wanted to be. She ended up leaving her job to take a job with a more stable salary. Unfortunately, we lost touch. I asked her former boss about her occasionally. She was so devoted to her son that I always wished her only the best.
Fast forward a few years.....I had left my job and ran into her former boss by accident. As I always had, I asked about Kendra. I was shocked as what I heard. She had been killed by a drunk driver. The saddest part was how it all unfolded. She had made it through her divorce. She met someone and had gotten engaged. From what I understand, her fiancee was going to officially adopt her son when they married. It was Christmas time. The new family had gone downtown to look at the Christmas lights. On their way back, a drunk driver ran a red light and demolished their car. The only survivor was her son who was sitting in the back seat.
The song "In the arms of an angel" reminds me of her. The lyrics "Spend all your time waiting for that second chance. For the break that will make it ok." really speak of her. Her life was finally on the right track and yet it ended so quickly. I'm not one to believe in religion but for my own sake I have to believe that the angels were there holding her that night.
Yes, I sit here in tears remembering a friend who I wish I had taken the time to get to know better. People come and go from your life on a daily basis. Make certain that you let those people know how important they are to you today. You don't have to be "best friends forever" for someone to have an impact on your life. Kendra definitely impacted my life greatly and her time in my life was extremely brief. All of these tears are worth it if it makes me that much more thankful of what I have and how far I've come.
I've included the lyrics....
Spend all your time waiting for that second chance
For the break that will make it ok
There's always some reason to feel not good enough
And it's hard at the end of the day
I need some distraction, oh beautiful release
Memories seep from my veins
They may be empty and weightless, and maybe
I'll find some peace tonight
In the arms of the Angels, fly away from here
From this dark, Cold Hotel Room, and the endlessness that you fear
You are pulled from the wreckage of your Silent Reverie
You're in the arms of an Angel; may you find some comfort here
So tired of the straight line, and everywhere you turn
There's vultures and thieves at your back
The storm keeps on twisting, you keep on building the lies
That you make up for all that you lack
It don't make no difference, escaping one last time
It's easier to believe
In this sweet madness, oh this glorious sadness
That brings me to my knees
In the arms of the Angels, far away from here
From this dark, cold Hotel Room, and the endlessness that you fear
You are pulled from the wreckage of your silent reverie
In the arms of an Angel; may you find some comfort here.
