According to my mother, I'm afraid of two things: boys and Driving. She has lots of evidence, so I can't disagree w/ her😁 I'm blogging about them, because it's hard to admit that I am. But if I never admit it, then I'll never be free of my fears. So here's my confession written where it can't be erased:

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I am afraid of driving and boys but not for any longer. This year those barriers must be moved aside, because of some major events in my life that require them both.

The first major event is getting my driver's license (congrats G! 🚗). If you're avoid practicing driving and got your permit at the last minute like moi, then it's kinda difficult to get a driver's license. My mother says I have till October to get myself together, but it's best if I start now. The only way for me to beat procrastination is to make a schedule when and where I'll practice. That way I'll complete the task to feel more productive. But to make sure that I won't spend the rest of my life traveling around on a bike, I've asked my father when can we practice so that I can't (literally) run away from driving. Plus I have my mother (thanks mom!) and my sister to keep me accountable by asking things like, "So when are you going to start practicing?" Although the most common question, my mom has asked is "Why are you afraid? If you don't know then you'll never conquer that fear." So I've been asking myself what's the core behind all this. Is it because I'm afraid to crash? Or fail? Whatever the reason is, I'm currently probing at it. Are any of you guys new drivers w/ some similar issues? If so, what do you do to conquer your fear? I'm sure there are some experience drivers reading this. What helped you when you were first starting out? Comment below! 🚘

The second major event is the Strands of Elegance Scholarship & Cotillion Program sponsored by the Friends for Life Foundation in partnership with the Phi Phi Omega of AKA Sorority. My sister and I apply and were accepted into the program just this summer. It's an amazing opportunity, and I am so excited! They'll be so many activities, workshops, training, and learning opportunities😆 At the end of the program in March, they're will be a Strands of Elegance Cotillion where I and the other debutantes will have their debut to society. I'll def put in the deets later concerning tickets, dates, and that type of stuff so that you guys can come too! And at this ball I will need an escort to "escort" me. So the boy search begins. But just like driving if you avoid one on one convos w/ boys and etc. then it's kinda hard to find somebody to be that escorts. On top of that, most of the boy friends (that space represent the friend zone implemented) aren't respectful, honest, trustworthy, and loads of other characteristic that a escort for this program needs to be. Unlike problem numba uno, this ones a little harder. Yes, I know I'm beautiful and a bag of chips lol. It's just hard finding that guy when I'm not a person to search for one. My mom and sister have always said that whoever chooses Brooke has to be straight, and I agree😂 Pretty much the same w/ my escort pick. So if you guys know anybody (or are that type of person) who has all these qualities, is in my age range, and is pretty free on weekends hmu! Anybody can dm me on insta (brooke.samaryan) or just comment below! (for readers thru the email grapevine here's a link) But that's just my quick fix to the boy problem. I think the only way that I'll get over this one is making myself more open and social (friendly-like) in certain situations. So like talking to all the boys in the room at a party just to be more comfortable around them in general. But tbh the hardest convos are w/ the cutest boys and there aren't that many near😒 So I actually need to go a lowkey boy search for both my future escort and future boyfriend lol.

But enough about my fears! Do you guys have any fears that you don't like to admit? Comment below!

To lighting the mood, I've decided to post tonight meal that yours truly prepared for the fam🙊 I posted some recipes last post (check them out), and I think that you can never have too many food pics on a blog! I would to hear some feedback from you guys so *throws glitter into the screen* comment if you want a recipe to this plate! It's based off a picture I saw from a blog get email from (ironically) called Cafe Delites. It wasn't labeled but I could deduce that it had piccata-like ingredients and meatballs, so I dubbed it Piccata Meatballs. After googling the name I discovered that there are many recipes for piccata meatballs! Here's the original picture and my take on it. Enjoy!