I have this amazing ability to be able to block out certain Memories and feelings, as I move on from an experience. I used to be horrible at this when I was younger, and I would dwell on something I screwed up on or a person who was no longer part of my life. It still takes time for me to recover from these things, but I realize how much quicker I can wipe away a lot of the negative or painful thoughts and memories from my brain. Yesterday, one of my many email accounts was approaching its quota and it occurred to me that I had a lot of deleting to do. I had emails from exes from years ago. It was time to Purge. I have been looking for a fresh start. To me, this fresh start has meant being able to really pick up and go. Still having responsibilities here, though, it felt good to have a baby step towards a fresh start. Even if I know I am past certain people and events, the act of deletion and physical removal was nice. I don't need these memories or reminders of the detailed communications I had with people from my past, who will never be part of my future. I still have photos. Photos are one thing I can never delete because I hold them in a different category, since they involve my experiences or travels. For some reason, though, even if holding onto the images doesn't bother me, getting rid of all the words that hold no meaning feels really good. These words lack any truth for me anymore. And the only way to enjoy the present and look forward to the future is let go of the past. I tend to have a vivid imagination, so I literally imagine certain people and events evaporating, as I carry out my purge. These will always be a part of my personal history, but they are merely facts now. The energy I have needs to be focused on where it matters most: today and each of the todays ahead of me.