A friend of mine recently told me that one of the most difficult things to accept as a human is the condition of not knowing something. This is especially true in matters of the heart, when the person you love leaves you. The Jawbreaker song "Do You Still Hate Me?" (the first of several Jawbreaker songs that will no doubt appear on this blog) is about that unknowing, that position of speculating what the other person is thinking, whether you will ever even be friends again, hearing through friends what he or she is doing, whether you should try to contact them or leave them alone. It also captures the pain in thinking back on how things were once good, and how the person you long for once loved you:

Been hearing about you.
All about your disapproval.
Still I remember the way I used to move you.
I wrote you a letter.
I heard it just upset you.
Why don't you tell me?
How can I do this better?
Are you out there?
Do you hear me?
Can I call you?
Do you still hate me?
Are we talking?
Are we fighting?
Is it over?
Are we writing?
We're getting older.
But we're acting younger.
We should be smarter.
It seems we're getting dumber.
I have a picture
of you and me in Brooklyn.
On a porch, it was raining.
Hey, I remember that day.
And I miss you