In times of struggle do you accept support from others?
Do you allow yourself to be empowered, to be strengthened by others?
What are the positive and negatives from your experiences of letting others in?
I don't trust people easily - I love them in minutes, but trust...
In order for people to offer to Support you, they need to know that there is a need for support
and communicating that need is terrifying and risky and seemingly impossible.
There are things that words cannot tell and that in itself is a problem -
and then there is the knowing that once you share, you cannot take it back -
the fear of rejection, being misunderstood, being too much, not enough, failing, worrying others
BUT
in spite of all of those fears and what ifs - people need people.
And I am no exception.
I took a chance a shared in small ways and slowly shared more.
What came next, oddly, was equally difficult and sometimes harder -
accepting support.
In order to Accept Support - you have to believe you're worth it
you have to trust that it comes from a place of genuine care and compassion
you have to let yourself be vulnerable
you have to trust that you are accepted for who you are, whatever that might mean at any given time.
I have learned to accept support.
sometimes
from specific people
depending upon how they are
depending upon what I am struggling with.
and that feels safe, and beautiful and precious.
And in receiving support, I am reminded that I am worthwhile,
that I am loved
and sometimes the hugs and TLC fuel me, remind me of the strength I possess
and sometimes a kick up the backside and a reality check, reminds me that life is worth fighting for.
Those few I will talk to honestly openly and let myself be broken before empower me,
they highlight the aspects of my self that are precious and positive
and most vitally they remind me that I fit in the pattern of the universe
in a hole that only I can fill.
And so I must fight for myself.
