There’s this cheesy thing that the therapy world tells people like me to do, and it involves explicitly writing out your future problems and what you will do about it.

For example, how will I know when I’m getting depressed? What about if I’m manic? What will I do when I get suicidal?

These are all very important questions. The key to the activity is finding logical solutions to these impending problems. How will I cope? Who will I turn to? What do I need from the people around me?

I struggle the most with the questions about turning to other people. How much support from others is healthy? At what point am I becoming a burden? What is appropriate to ask for?

I’m just full of questions tonight. I don’t know how to plan for the future and prepare myself against the dangerous situations that will inevitably occur. How am I supposed to move forward in life if I don’t have a solid plan in place?

I’m scared and worried and all of those related adjectives.