It's been a while since I posted. I've got my hands in many areas now. I'm trying to accomplish a lot this year. I pray I can be successful and actually complete this goals I have. I definately am trying to change my life and part of it is moving away from the things that are familiar to me. True it is what I am used to but to be honest the surroundings I have come accustomed to are counter productive to my growth.

One of these things holding me back is my family. I mean I love them very much but I feel like they are sucking the life out of me. I put my life on hold for my family, not that it's their fault but I mean I volunteered to stay home and help me family but they have gotten so used to me taking care of everything that now I'm responsible for everything when I don't want to me.

At some point, siblings need to grow up and do things on their own. At some point parents need to let their kids have a life. I feel like my family have become a vampire and they are just sucking the life out of me. I don't want to turn into a 35year old spinster still living with my mom. That is like death to me. I just need to get away. I need to be able to grow up. I'm too old to be still living with my family. Too old not to have the things that normal adults have.

I need to do something before I trully crack under the pressure and go running down the street screaming in terror.