I wrapped myself in the bluest Blue today
beyond color; it was a state of mind; it was a new skin
glistening / wet / bright.
i was hopefully reborn in that bluest blue
because the skin of my skin was singing
arias in the tongue of unknown lovers
aida echoed through the egyptian sands in me,
and my heart responded
the very blue of me was a voice
deep / resonating / transformative
i saw the holy ghost in my self
black church women with decadent sundays hats
and work gnarled hands were praising my name, my blue
and this blue of mine became me
more than a name (blue)
a beat (blue)
a rhythm (blue)
and i was harmonizing,
i was rhapsodizing
i was funk-defied, sanctified, and holy fulfilled
praising my self in my new skin
with my new name.
my mother became every mother,
i loved her in a thousand faces.
my father became every father,
i adored him in a thousand arms.
the air between us became roots
thriving, moving, living roots
not a state of mind,
a reality
blue allowed me to drop the sorrow,
to laugh at the hurt
and to go beyond color
i was the name of the name
the sound of the sound
all encompassing, all loving
WHOLE
and blue became the veins and arteries
running through the tree of me
leaves burst green,
reaching toward the sun
that was my sun
shining on the tree called me
and my family
see, miles davis was reborn as my son
and i loved him today
nina simone was reborn as my daughter
and i loved her today
you are my children
and i am your child
because today your voices have become my own,
my blue
MY BLUE
my reincarnation, transformation, overdue reformation
give me a name
and i'll give you a new one
give me a name
and i'll live you a new one
because to define me is to know me
and to know me is to condemn me
there are no words for a blue like mine
so i will be blue undefined
and i will live on
loving and whole and healthy
without you
the you in you
without you
because today i was blue
beyond definition.