S 9
17 9 43
18°13'  Sun in Gemini opp Natal Neptune
21°48  Moon conjuct to midpoint in Capricorn
29° 9   Mercury (Gem)
2°27    Venus (Ar)
24°15  Mars (Sag)
22°14   Júpiter (Gem)
6°14     Saturn (Gem) opp to Moon (Sag)
24°48   Uranus conjuct to Mercury and Venus in Aquarius
8°33     Neptune in Aquarius semi sextile to Sun
13°48   Pluto Conjunct to Moon in Sagittarius
6°21     North node  Can - entering 12 th
7°16     South node  Cap - entering 6 th
21°40   Lilith conjunct to Mercury in Aquarius
26°24   Chirion (Sag)

I look back and I say to myself "poor child, you were way in over your head" the god of karma set you up, cross fire of stars to drag you to hell.  you were a lamb heading to the slaughter house (nobody told ya that bae, nobody ever warned you about love).

You had to change, one way or another, that was the only way back then.  Loosing, bleeding, dying pushed you to change.

If I could, I would go back in time and save you from all that, but I can't.  All I can say is that "I get it now, I had no choice, it was gonna happen".

Alas, in the crying game you win or you die... "you died".  now I don't wanna play no more...

There is the glimmer of hope that if the past is to be understood, then, the future might not be so foggy after all....