a good song by the 1975 but also my current mood towards the idea of moving back home over the summer

every time I talk to my parents, I get more and more frustrated at the prospect of Living at home for 4 months this summer. I think I’m going to combust.

don’t get me wrong, I am very appreciative of everything they do for me and letting me to go to a very expensive school in Boston is so generous and I’m very grateful for that

but I also have a degree of freedom up here partially just because I am so geographically far that is  s o  n i c e  I can’t give it up

like having my mom asking me where I’m going and what I’m doing constantly is annoying as SHIT and I don’t want to be living under their rules.

I want to move out but I also know that A) I don’t have the financial means to do that in the slightest and B) I enjoy home cooked meals and I don’t have the ability to cook well enough that I could fend for myself in my own place. (however I feel like I could figure it out pretty quickly because the motivation is there but the money is the real problem)

it would also be cool to just be able to smoke in my own place and not have to worry about it but that’s not gonna happen at home

that’s not a priority but it would be nice

also they’ve just been really agitating me, whenever I’m talking to them I just get so irritable

distance from home is definitely good

I am glad I am far away and I’m going to relish in the last few weeks I have here as much as I can before I have to go back to living in boring white republican suburbia

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