Hello friends, I hope all of you had a good weekend. I have to say mine was awesome because I spent it with my friend Katie and we went to Michelle Fultz's Meta Physical Expo, then to the State fair then back to the Expo.
We walked so much! It was nice to be with my friend who loves me as I am! I found this couple at the fair that made jewelry out of crystals and stones, they're retiring and gave me such great deals!
The expo was great because not only did they have some supplies I needed but I also got to meet Michelle, it's so neat to meet someone who you have been reading their beliefs and she is so wise and kind.
I've always known that I have low self esteem and that I don't believe in myself enough-which is why I try and lift others up, I guess for me it's hard to believe anyone could possibly like me, let alone love me. I'm not sure why I feel these things about myself.
I need to work harder on these things just not sure how, you know? How do I convince myself that I am worthy to be loved and respected? How do I love myself like I do others? It's hard for me to lift myself up, but so easy for me to do it for other people.
I did finally make some decisions and I think some big changes are coming my way-which scare the hell out of me- but if I don't things here will stay the same and I can't stand that thought.
Changes scare me sometimes. Turning my world upside down gives me a tummy ache. But this summer I came really close to wanting to end my life. I have never thought about that before. Never, and I'm not now, being betrayed, lonely and feeling like I had no one to lean on did that to me. No support system is hard to live without.
I am feeling better. And I'm trying to make those hard choices. I'm making some plans too and not letting myself be so isolated. I'm letting go of the things I can't control or change, well I'm trying to anyway! Until we meet again......
We walked so much! It was nice to be with my friend who loves me as I am! I found this couple at the fair that made jewelry out of crystals and stones, they're retiring and gave me such great deals!
The expo was great because not only did they have some supplies I needed but I also got to meet Michelle, it's so neat to meet someone who you have been reading their beliefs and she is so wise and kind.
I've always known that I have low self esteem and that I don't believe in myself enough-which is why I try and lift others up, I guess for me it's hard to believe anyone could possibly like me, let alone love me. I'm not sure why I feel these things about myself.
I need to work harder on these things just not sure how, you know? How do I convince myself that I am worthy to be loved and respected? How do I love myself like I do others? It's hard for me to lift myself up, but so easy for me to do it for other people.
I did finally make some decisions and I think some big changes are coming my way-which scare the hell out of me- but if I don't things here will stay the same and I can't stand that thought.
Changes scare me sometimes. Turning my world upside down gives me a tummy ache. But this summer I came really close to wanting to end my life. I have never thought about that before. Never, and I'm not now, being betrayed, lonely and feeling like I had no one to lean on did that to me. No support system is hard to live without.
I am feeling better. And I'm trying to make those hard choices. I'm making some plans too and not letting myself be so isolated. I'm letting go of the things I can't control or change, well I'm trying to anyway! Until we meet again......
