I don’t know if it happens with you or not but I often feel out of place, as if I don’t belong where I am currently in life. sometimes things don’t make sense to me, not even a bit. I go mad about it and then I go into my own bubble. but then just after few minutes of this insaneness, I feel like on the top of the world, as if I have done something big. what? bipolar? after effects of an anxiety attack?  no, not any disorder, I think I am just losing my mind.

people will tell you not to lose your mind, but they will never tell you what if you do? would it get better? ever?

I was having back to back to back Bad Days, lost so much in just a year which made me feel devastated and my mind couldn’t take it and started dominating me. it started impacting my health, terribly. I started searching for therapy and ways to treat this thing which I used to call a ‘disorder’. I did so much which I can’t tell you in this blog post but in future, I sure will. it wasn’t getting any better. yes, I felt helpless but the question was did I really needed help? why I was feeling insane? and why the hell I was so embarrassed about it. isn’t it a part of growing up? isn’t the bad days make you stronger?

days passed and my interests started shifting toward spirituality. I started reading more about it and then during this process, I realized that maybe it’s really just in my mind. what if I start to dominate it, what if I become his master instead of letting it be mine. the purpose of writing this article is to tell you, people, that it’s okay to lose your mind, but what’s not okay is to be embarrassed about it, to give fucks to those people who think you are mad because you don’t behave in a way that they want you to.

we all feel directionless at some point of our lives, it’s a part of life, and it hurts, well, it’s supposed to hurt. things change, life can go from 0 to 10 and 10 to 0 just in the blink of an eye, and sometimes our mind takes time to process that, and when we hurry, when we hide our bruises and try to pretend that everything is okay, when we don’t feed our soul the positivity, meditation, love, and care that it needs, things get worse. so don’t let people tell you how you should behave, what you should do, how you should live your life because ultimately it is you who have to suffer.

so save yourself, they won’t come to resue.;)